I am splitting up my introductory post in hopes of getting more insight into some recent experiences I have had, which I am not able to share with friends/family. I have been making sigils for a very long time but am new to ritual, etc.
I’m experimenting with the notion of “designing deities” and venerating them. I am interested in personifying different parts of my brain and seeing what happens when I invoke them/make offerings to them (not grovelling). Last night was the first time I did any “devotions”;
visualize circle --> banishing --> shielding–> shrouding --> grounding --> charging --> exhib. gnosis --> inhib. gnosis --> invocations/blood offerings–> conclude rite --> banishing
I invoked 5 “deities” (ancestor collective/brain stem/hindbrain/diencephalon/telencephalon), during the final invocation, with my eyes closed, I saw a shape and felt something almost like peaking on acid. It was not hostile or invasive, but it was intense and frightening and I shied away from it. I have felt something similar during meditation, but this felt foreign. The deity I was make an offering to was a Wizard-Poet Archetype (telencephalon personification). Does anyone have any ideas what this sensation could have been??