Pathfinder's log

Jan 7th 2022:

Earlier this week I went to make my apology to Lucifuge for the night I had missed in doing “the nightly prayer”.

Not having the recommended items I pressed for what I might have on hand that would be agreeable.

(“Dragon’s blood”)

I was mentally shown the few cones I have on hand that haven’t been used.

I hate these, because they have an underlying smell that’s a lot like stinky cigarette smoke to them, and the tar that gets left behind smells like an ashtray and bbq smoke combined. (They’re the Walmart cone incense). I’ve only ever used them outside really, on top of rocks.

I wasn’t keen on this at all.

“How about something else?..”


I mulled this over and reluctantly decided to acquiesce to the demand.

My discomfort at the smell that would linger would just have to be part of the sacrifice I guess, and seeing as this is supposed to be a minor pact I’m doing, it didn’t make sense to argue the oint very hard when I was supposed to be making amends.

Very well …

Afterwards I said the prayer for that night.

Upon completion:


It was my understanding that I still needed to say the prayer for the one I had missed.

I obliged.

Whereas the first time I was definitely feeling something in saying it and kind of got into it, the second reputation felt strangely dull, flat, and without energy. Just words.

I found this a bit curious but didn’t linger on it.

That day I’d been feeling like there was some kind of pull to Lucifer.

I have a hand drawn grand Luciferian circle in a notebook that I spent time making months back (mid 2021 I guess).

I brought it out and proceeded to both listen to and recite this invocation:

As I’ve said before, I’ve gotten to where I don’t care much for the enns and part of that is that some of them seem a bit arbitrary.

For instance, you can use “renich tasa uberaca biasa icar ______” (otherwise Lucifer’s enn) whenever you call a demon in the east relating to air it seems. (This applies to the other “directional enns” [Jaden tasa hoet naca ____] [lirach tasa Vefa wehlic ____] [ganic tasa fubin ____])

And for someone like Lucifer it feels like something more concerted is preferable, at least for my taste.

After a bit I started to feel a heavy feeling as I started to trance out, and pricked my finger with one of my new lancets (28 guage, as the 33 guage I’d been using previously wasnt really cutting it).

I bloodied the seal and a sort of mild partial possession seemed to be occuring as my finger was being lead around the page Abit. I remember drawing a pentagram over the page at one point.

At one point I almost seemed to shake just a bit while my body felt heavy and I leaned forward in front of the table.

After a bit I felt the okay to discontinue and go to bed (as it was late and I was pretty tired).

I said some thanks and asked for guidance in my dreams and in the days to come.

Don’t remember what I dreamt that night but it seemed like there was a lot of strange things in my sleep.

So far it’s been a bit quiet on that front. :woman_shrugging:

“Oh, divine luminary! Thou shineth! Like sunbeams penetrating the foundations of the earth! Thine Grace ignites the seeds of creation! Burn my flesh thou light of lights! Most emminent perfection! Most magnificent of sights!”

I’ve actually been really frustrated the past few days and it feels like my attention deficit has really been getting in my way ( on top of other things).

The last few months of 2021 were rough, especially after November, and quite frankly a certain kind of soft functional alcoholism occurred in December as a stress response.

I’ve mostly petered off of that now but I may need to swear off alcohol for awhile.

The last couple months also made me realize rather uncomfortably that I have more trauma than I’m willing to admit to myself (because I’ve tended to downplay, minimize, or otherwise overlook it).

I even had a moment of what was a sort of PTSD episode in the second week of December. I woke up in the middle of the night having a sort of flashback or something and was just racked with anxiety, probably bordering on a mild sort of panic or something.

(This was preceded by a few weeks of anxiety and stress do to some circumstance and inconvenience I was dealing with).

I tried to blow it off as a result of bad dreams or something but the feeling wouldn’t go away so I did the LBRP not knowing if perhaps some lingering energies were contributing to my state or not.

I fervently thanked the angels while doing this as I felt awful.

I then did Liber Samekh afterwards to try to balance and calm myself.

The bornless ritual is very assertive and in asserting your power and authority can be very grounding.

Which it was.

I then called on Luna (keteriyas servitor) and asked her to ward and banish my home til I got past whatever this trying time I was dealing with. (And my home has felt very calm, and balanced afterward [thank you Luna])

I felt like shit the whole day and some of the next but got past it. It was definitely a minor ordeal.

Yesterday, I’d gone on a walk and towards the end on my way home I finally chanced on some river birch(es) that are part of the landscaping by a building.

I’d given up on ever finding any out and about, and lo! Right there not far from where I live but in a part of the neighborhood I don’t go by.

I grabbed some of the papery bark off one for possible future use.

Today, I will do the invocation of a new demon for the thing I’m doing with Lucifuge.

While I was thinking of amduscias, I kind of would prefer to do something more with them so I might opt for another.

We will see.

It would seem in my other pursuits that I’m being lead to some kind of hoodoo kind of stuff maybe.


Jan 10 2022:

Last night was a bit interesting…

As of this past Saturday I’m a week in to my six week Lucifuge working.

Last night I brought the sigil out and would’ve lit a candle for the “nightly prayer” but was instructed against this it seemed.

Put away the sigil.

I said the prayer around 9 pm but felt that this was somehow not ideal and that I’m supposed to be saying it later.

But y’know what, I gotta wake up early in the mornings. Lol

Something that occurred to me last night is that the line *“bless me with possession(s)” can be said and meant with a double meaning.

Physical possessions, as lucifuge is associated wealth acquisition/abundance.

And spiritual possession (which is something that’s interested me for awhile, and I do feel a calling to it seems).

Trying to mean two things and hold both intentions simultaneously can be an interesting exercise…

Rather than Amduscias, I finally settled on invoking Prince Seere.

I’d spent the previous hours cleaning and straightening the home (it needed it).

Id been running various errands otherwise.

For the invocation I settled on using this meditation:

I’ve previously had good success with a couple of their meditations.

I lay down and proceeded to relax and mentally recite “invoco te Seere” or while exhaling as I listened.
(Largely inspired by another users journal, and a method that helped me contact Namaah a couple years ago).

At one point it felt as though a presence came up to my bedside but it was a faint sort of feeling, so I’m not really sure.

My visualization wasn’t really up to snuff last night so I struggled a bit, and in comparison to ASMR that I like to listen to as I lie in bed, I found some of the meditation a bit jarring as she would say something here and there. I soldiered on though.

As I got to the part of the meditation where you meet Seere so you can look into the pool, I wasn’t really getting much and thought I might need to get up to tackle this another way…

And then all of a sudden I saw a strange almost story book kind of figure in my mind.

It was tall, dark and seemed to be made of an earthy material that could’ve been, rock or a lot like tree bark in texture. Couldn’t really tell. A sort of sticky build but long, and stop it’s head was a crown with elongated points.

(Not unlike this, but taller, and simpler)

It’s eyes glowed red…

(Oh, shit. Well here we go I guess…)

It pointed to the pool of water.

Something I like about this meditation is that it’s about your own personal treasure that Seere will reveal to you.

I pulled a lantern out of the pool.

This made a lot of sense to me, and tied into some personal symbolism that is relavent to me.

Next…I pulled out a large Ruby…curious…

I wasn’t sure what this signified, and started to lose my focus on the meditation.

I tried for awhile to maintain it and see if I could get past the ruby but it was nothing doing.

I thanked Seere and asked them to follow up with me in my dreams and sleep if possible and drifted off while reciting “invoco the Seere” in my mind.

I had some strange dreams.

At some point I seemed to be in Egypt and there was a tall man that looked like the guy from the mummy.

He was saying something about coming to bring an end to the sun (or it’s light? Something …) And somehow I understood this to be related to Lucifuge in some strange way.

I woke up at 3;25am…

Drifted off again, this time I seemed to have a vivid dream where I was in a snowy area or something outside.

A figure that more less seemed to be Ragnar Lothbrok came up beside me and knelt down (I seemed to be lying down myself, or crouched I’m not sure, fairly typical of the more vivid “visitations” I’ve had in the past…)

What followed was a sort pep talk, but also a callout where I was being told to “seize the moment” and such like.

A bit of a scolding that ended with a lighthearted sort of nod and a confidant smile.

(It was amusing that as I spoke to the figure he seemed to morph and change appearance a bit as if there was an instability in his appearance, towards the end he looked more akin to Ivar the boneless but…better looking? Lol)

I woke up again. Tired at this intermittent sleep but determined to get the last few bits of snooze before I’d have to be up for work.

Today I’d had enough with this one jackass I kinda deal with off and on.

I’ve told him to fuck off a few times, and he’s aware that I don’t have the kindest disposition towards him.

But he’s a dumbass and decided to rub me the wrong way today.

I’ve been patient, but lately I’m not in the mood for bullshit or disrespect.

I grabbed some twine, and went out to my outdoor space I use.

Performed the lbrp, and then followed with liber samekh.

Lit of cone of incense and pulled the twine out to do a binding with a knot curse.

9 knots

I wanted to burn it, but it wouldn’t burn very well.

I threw it into a old burrow.

“I cast you into the earth! Get fucked forever!”

I spit into the hole.

At this point I felt what seemed like a few enthusiastic presences that seemed to be volunteering for this.

I accepted.

I was going to put stipulations, and this was met with a vague annoyance and a sort of…disappointment?

After a quick exchange I was told:
“What must be, WILL BE”

(i understood this as a way of saying “the cats out of the bag” and to say that the arrow was loosed. Anything else was an attempt at mitigation of what I already set in motion:woman_shrugging:)

I had assumed these were some land spirits.

But it occurred to me later that I forgot I have a sort of gate (that remains…sealed…mostly, I think…) In this space and that my “volunteers” might be of a different flavor…this gave me a wicked glee. Things might just get very interesting…

As the next few hours progressed I was feeling a simmering anger at this person.

It’s a good start but I’ve really had it with the bullshit.

I will likely do more in the coming days unless I lose steam and stop caring about it. At the very least a call to vine to take down whatever protections he may have (strengthen the binding).

Raum is also tempting…

I actually have his printed picture tucked in a grimoire backburnered for such an event.

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Jan 11 '22:

Had some pretty wierd dreams.

Something about a group of mages on the run, one of whom was dressed as a nun.

I think she breastfed somebody for some reason (:no_mouth:)

There was also something about a cat, or was it my cat? I don’t properly recall.

The thing that stood out most was being in front of a large opening to what seemed to be the sewer…

Stop the opening, there was a jar in a ledge with a frog, a small kitten, and a rat.

Upon looking at this jar I remarked:
“BA’AL” (K Bael)

There may have been something else about a frog…

Did the jar signify a type of spirit vessel?

Back in early December due to extenuating circumstances I won’t get into, it would’ve been fairly inconvenient for it to be raining as much as was forecasted.

I had lain down the night before it was supposed to start raining largely dismissive because it had been a fairly pleasant day.

I woke up that night with a lot of wind going on outside and blowing through my city.


I drifted off annoyed and perturbed.

But as I was doing so I thought “I should try to reach out to Bael…”

As I mentally reached out to the king and brought my current predicament and request to the forefront of my mind, I started to feel a lot of energy as I lay in a semiconscious state of light sleep.

The energy seemed to pulse and squeeze around me and I could feel a light blanketing.

I fell asleep like this.

The next day I awoke thinking it was probably more a dream than anything.

Walked out my door…

Nothing. Stillness. There might’ve been some moisture but it was clear.

“Huh…well goddamn. I guess Bael really did come through. Holy…shit.”

I wanted to think of it as a coincidence but for the next two weeks or so, my city hardly got more than a small sprinkle (if that) while it would rain elsewhere.

Up until it was finally no longer an inconvenience to me.

Bael did me a solid on that front. For damn sure.

Today it would seem some chaos is already afoot that on the tail end of yesterday, I can’t help but think is related to my recent knot working, and my volunteers

I’ll see as the days progress.

I may need to do something to mitigate collaterall, as it seems at least one instance (maybe…2) are collateral…

Last night I meant to bring out some wine for Prince Orobas, but didn’t get around to it.

Tonight I’ll put out a glass for him (as its his week apparently, and he seemed very eager to work with me when I previously called him).

Jan 15th 2022:
Satur(n)day :ringer_planet:

Last night I meant to put a glass of wine out for Prince Orobas, but alas it slipped my mind, and I wasn’t going to do it without putting the proper attention into it. Ah, well…

(Today I will make the offering of the weekly candle which marks week #2 of the 6 I’m supposed to do…)

The other night I was doing the nightly prayer and couldn’t help but feel it leaves something to be desired. But I was instructed to do this as outlined so…:woman_shrugging:

(I might wish to make another run, but change some things and put a more personal touch on it, we’ll see…for now at least, this is an appetizer and the introductory course)

In the lore, I was reading somewhere about how Lucifuge is reluctant to appear when summoned.

As the one who “flees the light” I kinda feel like this is in line with not wanting to come into the phenomal world and the light of manifestation or…something like that. I’m not really sure how to word my thinking on this.

Lately I found myself thinking of Azazel…

Which makes sense in the context of this lucifuge thing I’ve got going.

Azazel is very saturnian and dark.

My experiences with him have been rather a bit spooky at times.

When I’ve “seen” him, he’s appeared as a deep black shadow being with horns at times and eyes that glow enough as to project beams of light…

I was feeling very frustrated yesterday about a number of things. It’s been aggravating.

Last night I decided I was going to Call on Opfaal…

Lbrp, then liber samekh.

Grabbed a blue candle.

Felt a pull to use some river birch bark which at first I doubted but then changed my mind and went with it.

Drew Opfaal’s sigil on it.

I then set about calling them:

“Come Opfaal! I call you, I summon you, I conjure you! Hear my voice! My voice calls to you across space and time! My voice reaches out to the foundations of the world! My voice calls in every time and every place! Come to me Opfaal, come into this temple! Come into this space!”

I grabbed the candle and started rubbing it between my hands like trying to start a fire adding my energy and heat to it as I continued:

Come, hear [here]!
“*Come, here [hear]
Again and again, and again with growing momentum as I rubbed the candle between my hands and I started to trance a bit.

“I am here…” (The voice was very feminine and yet like a very youthful male)

Thank you for coming Opfaal, I have called you on behalf of another, this one (the requester), and if I may, I have two other targets I seek your help with.

I sensed this was agreeable.

I lit the candle.

Thank you Opfaal.


(I was asked to blood their sigil and I did)


I went to get the incense

“You’re a bit under prepared…” (This as said more as an observation, but also as a critique)

I’m sorry, was trying to keep it a bit simple.

I blooded then lit the incense.

I’d been receiving flashes of my abundance rune sigil I’d received months ago on the opposite side of the bark.

I was asked to do this, so I obliged.
(There had been a feeling I was getting like while this operation would be good it wouldn’t address everything, like there was some further circumstance(s) or complications at play. When I agreed to put this other sigil into this mix I felt like this was a good addition and would help with some of the other matters to some extent or other)

I drew it out and proceed to activate it.

“I plant the rune ingwaz upon this birch! I seed the potential for harvest! It puts out its roots through gebo! It receives vitality and strength through ansuz and tiwaz! It brings forth abundance through fehu! And the harvest is reaped from where it began, jera seeded in ingwaz!”

I proceeded to chant the runes in whatever pattern came to me while variously interspersing such statements through out while holding my hands out in front of it in a triangle (manifestation mudra) and peering at it through my hands pushing energy and intent into it…

"ᛜ ᚷ ᚷ ᛏ ᛏ ᚨ ᚨ ᚠ ᚠ ᚠ ᛃ ᛜ ᚷ ᚨ ᛏ ᚨ ᛏ ᚷ ᚨ ᛏ ᚨ ᛏ ᚠ ᚠ ᚠ ᛃ ᛜ ᚷ ᚷ ᚨ ᛏ ᚨ ᛏ ᚨ ᛏ ᚨ ᛏ ᚠ ᚠ ᚠ ᛃ "

When I felt this was enough blooded it with a further statement of activation and power.

I sensed this was good and asked if anything else was desired and went over the charge(s) a final time.


“Through alchemy of fire, and blood, I send this forth in the candle flame to be transmuted in it’s calcination (ash)” (I said this more or less)

I then burned the birch bark and set its blackened crispy remains in front of the candle.

“Dismiss me”

Very well, I thank you Opfaal and release you to go forth and execute this charge. Thank you, thank you, thank you!

The candle flame burned high and cleanly, leaving very little behind when done. I take this as a good sign.

And that was it. I felt a bit drained and the headache I had before this seemed to worsen so before long I ended up going to bed to try to sleep it off (went to sleep rather early tbh).

I dreamed some strange things last night, but my memory of it seems to have slipped.

Last night I woke up at one point because I heard a female voice calling out to me in a sort of coaxing, sing songy and playful kind of way using a nickname that I don’t really use for myself but that others have used with me (that’s close to my real name and a play on it referencing a famous actor).

“_______🎶 ______🎶 ______🎶”

I could hear it in my light state of sleep and without thinking really thought I had to get up to see who it was…

Of course when I opened my eyes I realized that I was alone and there wasn’t any way anybody was there calling me and otherwise wouldn’t be in my place either.

A bit dumbfounded but amused, I laughed it off while wondering who it might’ve been (Lilith that you? :eyes:)

It’s been a hot minute since I’ve had an occurrence like that.

Last night was Friday, and I’d kinda meant to make an offering to Pomba Gira. I wonder if it was her…:dancer:


Forgot about this:

Last night after I finished with Opfaal I kept getting impressions of a white misty group of figures looking at me and seemingly talking amongst themselves kind of excitedly or whatever.

When I would put my attention on them they would kind of go POOF and disappear/dissipate until I took my attention off them.

I think there was between four and five presences in the group but I couldn’t get anything individual as it seemed like the would intermittently spread out a bit and coalesce together.

I blew this off as my imagination maybe, but then again it might be related to the voice that woke me up.

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Jan 18th 22 Tues:

Sunday night I decided to do a sort of petition to King Vine for two targets.

I drew out the sigil, and as I did so I started to have a strange sort of feeling/experience with it as if it was some large imposing tower in front of me and I could see banners hanging off of it. (There may have been a gate).

I also felt like I was seeing a medieval sort of knights helmet.

Once I had the sigil good, I started to gaze at it as I recited the enn.

It was a bit late and I was somewhat sleep deprived (between 1&2 am), and I could see a darkness to my right side that seemed to move in my peripheral vision. It gave me the sense of being watched by a presence peeking from just outside my vision.

After I’d gazed at the sigil long enough, and it felt good, I proceeded to think of my targets and how I felt towards them. I wrote down what I wanted over the sigil in red ink.

I then spoke to Vine once again iterating my will.

Tear down their defenses, their “towers”, and leave them wide open. (One of them being a previous target I did a knot spell against), I also emphasized that they should be so defenseless as to pick up whatever astral nastiness they come across in their day to day (parasites, negative energies, etc).

I signed the page and put my personal sigil/seal on it.

I then went over the targets names and started agressively crossing them out with my finger in cutting swipes as I cussed at them and told them they were fucked.

I finally drew a reverse invoking pentagram
Over the page in red ink, followed by a circle widdershins.

I grabbed the page with tongs, struck a match and through holy sulfur and flame lit it on fire as I said “get fucked!”

I definitely felt a drain after this…

I also made a petition to give one of my targets Nightmares for a period of about a month, or at the very least make their rest very bad. (I’ll be interested to see how this plays out or what it yields)

I had also drawn out the sigil of Raum on another page but decided to leave be for the time being.

While I was at it, I’d been thinking of Namaah for awhile off and on (maybe her reaching out to me) so I decided to do something there too.

This time I drew out a hendecagram dominating the page and within it one of her sigils.

I then wrote over these again in red ink my petition for her to help me with the things that are in her purview.

After all that I went to bed for the night.

Last night, I called on Andromalius, Marbas, and Lucifer…

I started by drawing out Lucifer’s sigils as inthat would be the most time consuming.

Then Andromalius…

No sooner had I set the notepad aside and a deep voice cut into my mind somewhat authoritatively.

(“Why do you call me?”)

Holy shit, “I call you on behalf of ano-”

(“WAIT!..I will come back…”)

I sensed that I should wait til I actually do everything.


I had to go to the laundry room to check on my clothing, walked out the door and was a surprised when I saw a shadow on the stairwell/runway/porch? (I’m on the second story) walking away from the wall for a moment.

I took a moment to see if I could replicate this somehow, but the problem was that there wasn’t a soul around to have caused this shadow, and it wasn’t my own as all the lights sources were in the wrong places.

Moreover, I saw it in a space that wasn’t even a surface for a shadow to be on, and in fact with the full moon and various street lights, it was too dark to be a regular shadow cast by anything.

I’d only seen it for a moment, but admittedly after running through everything quickly this was actually pretty creepy and gave me a sort of chill for a bit.

It was also pretty exciting. (This is gonna be good! I thought)

After having made dinner and some internal judgement I also drew out the sigil of Marbas.

I was going to bring the triangle of manifestation out but sensed not to. Ok

Grabbed a yellow candle, a black one, rum, matches, and two sticks of sandalwood incense. The tongs, and a burn bowl.

Did a banishing, then followed with Liver Samekh (bornless rite)

My first objective was Marbas.

Similar to how I called Opfaal I rubbed the candle (yellow) between my hands while chanting his name.

But then I lit it and as his sigil is a bit triangular I placed it smack dab in the center and proceeded to call him.

He came and I outlined the charge.

I blooded the incense at request, but not the sigil as he doesn’t want that just yet (he did ask for a bit of the rum.)

I thanked him, and burned the sigil setting his candle and incense to the side.

Next was Andromalius.

It seemed pretty evident that he was already pretty close and I was receiving intuitions and impulses.

RUM on the candle…

RUM on the incense!

RUM on the sigil!

A shot glass full of RUM!

The whole time there was this strange feeling of a kind of interesting manic glee or something. Under the right circumstances I think I’d probably have been lead to throw or smear rum on everything like it was paint or something…

Lit the candle (black) and dripped some of the wax onto the sigil. Lit the incense.

Overall, andromalius gave me an impression of being very no bullshit and to the point. (I actually somewhat reflexively said “yes, sir” when rum was asked for in the shotglass and when I was prompted for more)

I outlined the charge (there was a sort of “get to the point” vibe) and in the spots where the page wasn’t wet with rum, wrote down some things (protection. Find enemies, and punish them!!!)

I then burned the sigil. Moved his candle and incense aside.

I was going to dismiss him but something was communicated (impressions) subtly to the effect of wanting to hang around while I called on Lucifer. “I want to see his light” or something along those lines popped into my head. It was kinda wierd.

I started reciting Lucifer’s enn and breathing air onto the sigils as I gazed at them.

The funniest thing happened.

My inflection in saying the enn completely changed.

Normally I recite it with a heavier lower recitation and pronouncing it like it was latin with a bit of a droning.

But I started to speak it more softly, and lightly and pronouncing it like it was English.

This actually made me pause.


I’d stop and start again and it would keep happening. Holy. Shit.

While I didn’t get any huge sense of Lucifer’s presence, what I did get was a sort of aloof and enigmatic vibe. I didn’t know what to make of this, but pressed on.

I made my case and outlined what I was asking for.

I got the impression that by not having some incense for Lucifer I may have committed a bit of a faux pas (as the others had incense).

I was given the impression to grab the rose incense I have on hand…

Went to get it and it changed to jasmine being wanted. Very well.

I pricked my finger and blooded the incense quite a bit.

I then proceeded to blood the sigils a good bit.

I was given the impression of light shining down on the person I was helping. I drew this out on the page, rays of light with the target at the bottom of the page.

I then fumigated the sigils with the incense before finally saying a thank you and burning the page.

Before I burned it, it was brought to my attention that I’d need to put a post in the thank you thread. I kinda felt like I was being told I hadn’t properly thanked spirits in previous endeavors and that I need to be more mindful of doing so or something.

I dismissed marbas.

In dismissing andromalius it was clear he was very eager to get to work like someone who was rushing out the door.

I basically called it a night after that.

This last Saturday I made a small offering of rum, heart chocolates and red tealights to Pomba Gira. I’d missed Friday. (Not mandatory or anything, but more of a courtesy and relationship building I guess) No further developments on that front though.

I’m not sure how far I need to go or take it with that, and I have other pokers in the fire I gotta look at. So …:woman_shrugging::thinking: We’ll see I guess.

When I’d been looking at candy and chocolates to pick some out I started to feel a heavy feeling of presence and actually started to get somewhat nauseous. I quickly picked some chocolate and moved on. Lol

Yesterday I tried to invoke P Orobas but kept getting an odd impression like he was resisting it or wasn’t really game for it.

Prince Orobas:

Not sure what that was about but I kinda felt like since I was at work he didn’t appreciate that for some reason. Despite that I did get some impressions that the invocation was mildly successful.

Later that day I went to a place for lunch and while standing in line got some vague impressions and noted with amusement that the guy at the register was giving me some funny looks.

I don’t know what I was doing or looked like but he didn’t seem to like it. Lol


I forgot to add that in dismissing Andromalius I was definitely told something to likes of “We WILL meet again…” Which came with a sense of a sort of amusement.

The way you might expect a cocky rogueish character to say it…

Edit 2:

Goddamn, seems I’m forgetful.

Last night before bed I was scrolling through my images and this blew my mind.

Should be Andromalius’ sigil (nope I take it back, upon further inspection I can see part of one of Lucifers sigils in the second image) and sheet of paper:

Maybe I’m crazy, but to me (especially when you see it in the thumbnail) it looks like the crispy portion of the paper forms a face looking upward in some fashion…unreal.

Ave Lucifer

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Sat Jan 22 '22:

(Previous draft didnt make it. Here we go again…)

(Had some synchronicities about the nature of experience that I can’t help but think is some kind of lucifuge gnosis…)

Last two nights ive missed the “nightly prayer”, and as yet haven’t done this week’s invocation.

Guess Lucifuge’s gonna get a big make up offering in addition to his candle for sat.

Last night after midnight I made a small offering to Pomba Gira.

Three red tealights, three dove (heart shaped :heart:) chocolates, and dried rose petals I got from the mercado in a whiskey glass.

(Funny note about the chocolate: my understanding is that pomba gira means something along the lines of “turning dove(s)”

This time I was pulled to put vodka in the glass over the chocolate and rose petals.

I had rum which is more the usual thing to give, but this was naysayed was what I felt. Ok

I could tell tobacco was wanted, I (wordlessly) negotiated to smoke one for her today at some point after dark (kinda feels like the preferred thing to do would be to smoke it in a cemetery…but that may just be me…).

Within the glass I also placed a “female trident” I had fashioned out of twisted copper wire. The wire I had gotten some time back from something that would’ve otherwise been thrown away.

I also played one of her pontos (song).

In quimbanda, and other African Traditional Religions (ATR), ferramentas are used. Typically placed in a nganga. These are points of interaction for the spirits sort of like energetic/spiritual lightning rods.


I can’t help but be reminded a bit of the trishul and how it’s used in Hinduism just a bit.


It’s funny that there’s all the urns in the background of that first video. I had been looking at tea urns earlier in the day before I found/watched it, and found out you can actually buy “keepsake urns” on Amazon.
(Related to something I’ve been looking at or working on in the background) so that honestly felt like a bit of a synchronicity.

Some advantages would be, they’re made of metal, and they have screw on lids. If you knock them over by accident (or a pet does) nothing’s gonna break or spill. If you’re in “the broom closet” you can pass them off as remains of a relative or pet and keep them out in the open (assuming you don’t have enough to look rather odd. Lol)


The second video brings up some interesting points.

Particularly the part about ngangas being used to connect with past selves and whatnot. I’d like to know more about this…

Another point of interest, is the talk of Exu Laroye and the four corners. The back of the neck.

Which is also alluded to in this video vvvv

Something that occurred to me today in putting this together is that my various experiences in 2020 we ith spiritual presences on my back while I was in different states of lucid sleep may very much be related to this.

Also, I wonder if the more “chaotic” (harsh might be a better term in so much as these were not comfortable energies) or fiery energies I experienced would qualify these as “hot spirits” that I experienced. I dunno.

Something else…oh yeah,
I heard something somewhere (might’ve been one of the videos above) about a person’s personal pomba giras (and/or exus) are spirits that answer under the title of that pomba gira. In effect, that pomba gira is a mask that denotes the type of energy, etc of ones personal pomba gira.

Since I had that dream about maria padilha, it follows that maria padilha typifies the nature of what would be my personal pomba gira…so I guess I should further research on that.

Still don’t know where this is all going but I can see where some of the threads are aligning…


Jan 24 '22 Mon:

Finally activated The Exiled Key the other night.

I gazed into it and proceeded to chant the song of the primordial beasts 108 times on my mala:
“Nar’resha Var Kuva Harsha, Ramptah, Ramptah, Ramptah…”

(It’s tempting to make a practice of this for awhile…)

While gazing at it I seemed to see various faces, one birdlike, another somewhat “alien” (and somewhat skull-like), and others…

At one point I saw a strange black wavy, misty, substance that seemed to both be exuded and drawn in to the sigil.

Finally I added my own essence to the sigil to complete activation.

I’m very interested in using it in the charging of things in particular…

Recompense has been made.

Though, I still managed to forget the invocation for last week. (I feel like some personal block is coming into play here for some reason…)

I’ll have to double up this week, or just do more period.

This is week three, day 2. A little over a third of the way there.

Last night I finally acquiesced to the repeated pull of a spirit, but no more can be said on this. I note it though.

I had the exiled key out pinned to the wall above my bed as I slept.

Seems like I had some pretty strange dreams.

One I was on the run with a woman and a girl. We were running from some dark entity or force that seemed to time travel.

At one point the girl disappeared in a flash apparently being zapped to the future…

I then dreamt of being in front of an electronic keyboard that I was messing with.

At one point aperson came up and turned on the sustain pedal and suddenly every note sounded like part of a greater symphony and I started making some good music where before it was falling kinda flat.

This morning I seemed to have a lot of mental content stirring and some of it seemed to center on revenge against people in my youth. Felt like something was poking at my unconscious baggage…

I was at the store earlier today and was perusing the valentine’s day stuff.

I don’t care about the holiday, but I’ve noticed in pictures online that offerings to Pomba Gira are often placed in things that look a lot like Valentine’s day decor which probably has more to do with the types of love magic she’s often called on for (man I just got the craziest sense of Deja Vu just now, like I’ve typed some of this before…come to think of it I had a strong sense of deja Vu about something the other day as well…I think it might be been in relation to the exiled key…).

I thought it might be fun to get some goofy valentine’s wineglasses or whatever but didn’t see anything of interest.

Now, tbh I’ve kind of been having some doubt about the whole thing. Am I blowing the dream I had out of proportion and just going down an unnecessary rabbit hole?

While I was perusing the radio was going in the background and the radio dj was doing an adspot.

But it got weird because I heard him say “Pomba Gira’s House” clear as day. Clear. As. Day.

Not something I heard in my mind. Actually spoken. On the radio. (Granted, I know there’s no way that was what was said, but that is most certainly what I heard. Kinda like some elaborate auditory hallucination? Hot damn, it was actually kinda eerie).

Sat night I smoked the cigar for pomba gira as I’d previously agreed to do. I washed the copper wire trident I had made and put in her Friday offering glass, and blew the smoke on it until I finished the cigar.

Circling back to invocations…

I was contemplating Bifrons.

I’ve been dealing with a lot of death themes for a few months as and feel like he’s a good spirit to go with…

Also, MONEY.

Kinda want to invoke Mammon

We will see.

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Jan 29 '22 Sat:

This felt like a long week in a way.

The other day I had called on Belial on behalf of a relative whose having medical issues that insurance wants to be dodgy on.

Luckily for that relative, someone in their family is into the occult.

That was Thurs night.

Perhaps it’s related, but maybe not; I had a lot of anxiety come up Fri morning, lasting a good portion of the day.

Now, on the one hand I’d had a lot of caffeine, and on the other hand most of it was related to some things that have been weighing on me for awhile.

I found myself wondering if Belial’s energy was bringing up my own obstacles and confronting me with them. Because, that’s honestly what it kind of felt like.

Regardless, I managed to keep it together. Lol

Last night I finally found one of two channeled sigils I had squirreled away for a long time.

I’ve been wanting to call the spirits that I received these from at the beginning of the year, but again couldn’t find them.

(Goddamnit…page reloaded and I lost most of the entry I had written up. Frustrated)


Jan 30 '22 Sun:

Last night I gave Lucifuge his weekly black candle. I blooded it said the prayer over it and lit it.

End of week three…week four begins!

It felt like lucifuge wanted incense, but when I prompted I just got a sort of aloof feeling without answer.

Up to me, I guess.

I grabbed a stick of lavender incense. I felt like this was okay, though not ideal. All the same…

Sort of on a whim…but also like there was a nudge…I decided to do The sphere rite of Satariel

I asked Lucifuge if this would be okay, and felt it was rather encouraged actually. Alright, sure.

After some internal debate I decided I’d invoke Ipos before going to bed with the above meditation (as I lay down and relaxed).

I was actually having a hard time with visualizing the meditation…

But the recurring image I was seeing was of a very icy and snowy mountain.

Myself wrapped in a thick blanket or whatever walking towards this mountain…against the cold and maybe snow flurries…

At some point after speaking some kind of invocation and repeating “I invoke thee Ipos!” it felt like my jaw was clenching as I said it. I wasn’t sure if this was resistance or just a weird manifestation of Ipos energy…

After a bit I settled down and went to sleep.

I definitely dreamed a lot of strange things, but don’t really recall much as I was up and down in bed.

I do remember giving some chick a foot massage rather randomly at some point. Her feet were strangely small in comparison to the rest of her body…:woman_shrugging:

The previous night I had many strange dreams as well.

I’d invoked Bifrons that night.
I kinda fell asleep in the middle of that though…

I dreamt that I was out in the middle of nowhere by a desolate road in the woods singing loudly while blasting music…

I was at a campground and/or some kind of summer camp.

At one point I seemed to be having an extended Convo with a child about I don’t remember what…

I dreamt that I was in a comic/book shop apparently looking for UNO cards.

There was also something about a cat or rabbit…

Last night I also drew out the channeled sigil I recently found for the spirit that gave it to me.

As I drew it I seemed to receive some guidance on the line placement (made a nicer one for future/official use).

I used the old one I had stashed away to write out a sort of petition asking to come to me and work with me so we can feel each other out or whatever.

Traced it over to make it look more neat, gazed at it u til I felt it was good. Wrote over it what I was wanting to do, dabbed some rum on it and burned it…

Now if I could only find that other one…


The first video that you posted, love his music. I have one stuck in my head and was about to play it.


Feb 3 '22 Thurs:


These eyes see-eth not NIL, but TRUTH…”

The last few nights Ive been ramping it up with Lucifuge.

With the exception of Tues. That day I got home and had a large bout of anxiety for the course of nearly three hours. Might’ve been on the edge of a panic attack…I didn’t know whether it might be related to the night before, so I did a thorough banishing, and also ended up destroying and/or closing a slew of open sigils in my altar (this seemed desired actually so maybe there was an internal nudge).

In banishing I borrowed from traditional witchcraft and grabbed one of those small scented broom things I have around (eucalyptus scented, note: eucalyptus is used medicinally for Clearing the respiratory system, “you can breathe easy”).

I started at the top of my place, “sweeping” the energy from top to bottom and finally gathering a dark sort of mist at my front door.

Probably because of my protections and whatnot, I actually had to open my front door and blow the remaining energy out the door. Lol

(I had either preceded this with the LBRP, or followed up with it, I don’t remember).

I think I’ll have to be more diligent in clearing my space at least for awhile as I do things. I spent the rest of Tues night focusing on trying to stay chill and self care.

Some of the anxiety may have been related to excess caffeine or something so Ill cut way back for awhile.

What I had done Monday (and sun I believe) night was recite a mala of Lucifufe’s enn (eyen tasa valocur lucifuge rofocale), followed up with the nightly prayer.

I then used three other prayers that I felt good with:

Demonic Mantra: “Lord Lucifuge Rofocal, Lord of Underworld, Gatekeeper of the Forlorn River. Reveal to us the Dark Path, guide us through the journey of darkness. The decent of the underworld, to the Throne of the Dark Lords. Guide us through the darkness, and through the shadows. Lord of the Underworld and Darkness, Reveal to us the power of the shadow.”

Demonic Affirmation: “To Lucifuge Rofocale we call. From the abysm we descend. To the Darkness we are reborn. The soul we bare is one of darkness. The soul within is one of night. We are reborn to the shadow and to the Kingdom of Darkness. The Underworld Kingdom of Lucifuge Rofocale. To the darkness we are drawn. To the Shadows we are called. Lucifuge Rofocale, reveal to us the secrets of shadows. Reveal to us the secret of the Abysm. Guide us to dark truth, the core truth of the eternal black. We walk with you, Lord of Shadows. We walk with you Lord of the Damned. We embrace you Lord of the dead. Let us be reborn in the darkness. Guide us with your essence through the eternal Abysm.”

Demonic Hymn: “Oh Lord Lucifuge Rofocale, Lord of Darkness, Lord of Shadow, Lord of the eternal Abysm. He who walks through the dead and the damned regions of the Underworld. He who knows the shadows of the heart. We seek entrance, we hear your call. Open the gates of the underworld. Open the gates of the Dark Abysm. Lord Lucifuge Rofocale, we are guided by your hand, we are guided by your shadows. We walk with you, through danger and darkness, through shadows unknown, we are guided by you. We are guided to truth. Truth found only in eternal darkness. Truth only revealed by you. We are reborn into the darkness of truth.”

After this I followed with “The Call onto the Powers of Darkness” as posted by Connor Kendall, and also followed up with the sphere rite of Satariel.

I also followed this up with a bit of “the song Of the primordial beasts”:
Nar’resha Var Kuva Harsha, ramptah, ramptah, ramptah
With the exiled key out. At times touching it to my third eye area as I recited the “song”

In addition to that I did a couple other things I won’t detail here, but are very much in the same vein of thinking…

(I’m also contemplating some of Connor Kendall’s other posted rites…)

Last night, I felt much better about things so I decided to keep at it as Ive been doing with the additional elements.

I did however precede this with a demonic banishing. Lol for my sanity at the very least.

Yesterday I had been feeling various tingles on my head and different parts of my body (mostly my head) so I think some spirit was/is hanging around. That sort of thing tends to happen more frequently or consistently when I’m on track.

I was a bit dissatisfied with the previous copper trident I had made for Pomba Gira so I destroyed it and put the cooler bits in some salt to cleanse, and made a new one I’m more satisfied with. This was partly a sort of offering as well since I didn’t make an offering this last Friday or Monday like I meant to.

I also decided to make one for Exu (exu and pomba gira are closely intertwined).

Again, don’t know where this is going but…we’ll see.

I ordered a copy of “Pomba Gira and the Quimbanda of Mumba Nzila” that I’m waiting on in the mail…


Feb 5 2022, Sat:

Last night I decided to go through some of The challenge(s) of darkness…

1 through four, with some of my own additions.

Firstly, I did a demonic LBRP…as I’m trying to lean into the darkness it makes more sense to use a darker banishing…also, this one has use of Azazel in the north where my altar is and I wanted to make use of that.

Followed up with Liber Samekh [bornless ritual].

I had the drawn out pentagram above the altar and began to gaze into it until I saw a sort of darkness coming out of it…

(Sidenote: I seemed to see a darkness funneling out of me as well at some point but this may have been later in the proceedings)

Challenge 2:

I lit the black candle and started pulling the dark energy into it until it became impregnated with it.

I then started to see the candle’s other form as it existed in the dark black silence giving off black light and emanating a black energy…

I then started up this video while I chanted the words to it …


“Vhauntu Mhae Nocturna Astrahnae”
“Sohna Tae A Estu Alluminae”
“Estro Mhakalash Kala Naztronae”

“Ez Un Nhastu Ez Un Tumeahna”
“Ez Un Bahlo Ez Un Tumhae Allash-Ahna”
“Ez Un Histae Ezhon Infernum”

“Rhana Mheso Ezhon Tu-Ahtta”

“E Na E Nu Ahna Nocturna”
“E Na E Nu Ahna Infernum Ahtta”
“E Nu E Na Ahna Sola-Rhan Eternae”

“Nocturna Vhalash Ahna”

“E Sa E Nu Halu Maesu”
“Sola Mhae Ahna Nocturna”

After doing this for a few mins I was feeling kind of heavy…

While the video continued, still holding a hand towards the flame I changed a few rounds of the black flame mantra as I gazed into it…

“Nahutz Fer Anta, Infernum Negra… Kneah Latentum Un Fhuregro Mein Dealac Salo Atotos……”

When this was good I started on the renunciations…

First, the Cross :latin_cross::church:…I gazed into it and tried to summon forth it’s false light

Admittedly this seemed to take a bit of work.

I kinda realized what a dead symbol the cross really is to me as far as being a Christian symbol anyway.

Nevertheless, I managed to summon images of your typical christian imagery.

" This symbol does not belong to the god that has taken it, may the christian god of false light and may his prophet burn in darkness eternal i renounce thee and your light shall be consumed in darkness ".

I BURNED the cross…

Next, Islam. The crescent and star…:star_and_crescent::mosque:

This took a bit of work. I focused on various Islamic chants/songs I’ve heard before and visualized practicing Muslims doing their adorations and practicing their religious rites or whatever…

" This symbol does not belong to allah the muslims have taken it, may the islamic god allah and may his 99 prophets burn in darkness eternal i renounce thee and your light shall be consumed in darkness ".

I BURNED the crescent and star…

Next, the “Star of David” :star_of_david::synagogue:

Once again I gazed at it as I summoned up sounds and images of practicing Jews and whatnot…

"This symbol does not belong to the god of the jews the jews have taken it, may the hebrew Judaic God and his prophets burn in darkness eternal i renounce thee and your light shall be consumed in darkness ".

I BURNED the “Star of David”

Finally came the burning of hair to Ahriman…

This felt particularly good to do. The smell of burnt hair adds an element of nefariousness to things…

" I renounce Ahura Mazda and his angels of limitation, i burn the hair in flame which is the sin and renunciation of Ahura mazda ".

I then proceeded with the invocation of darkness…

In lieu of drawing a pentagram on my hand physically I instead visualized it and drew it out with my fingers.

A dark hand at some point seemed to empower this, Azazel I believe…

The pentagram blazed and then emanated a dark smoky thick black fog type of energy…

"May the powers of darkness enter me, May darkness eternal come to my calling,
The driving force that is darkness come to my calling, i call down darkness absolute,
I invoke the Darkness, enter your temple, enter my hand, enter my flesh, enter my blood, enter my heart, enter my mind, enter my soul, i invoke darkness, i invoke darkness ".

I saw the darkness spread within me.

Something I should also note, is that I additionally made use of The Exiled Key during these proceedings especially when loading the candle with dark energy…gazing into it and reciting the song of the beasts…Nar’Resha Var Kuva Harsha, Ramptah, Ramptah, Ramptah

(Interestingly, I ended up noticing that some of the geometry actually forms an inverted cross before I had burned the paper “cross sigil”)

Finally, I removed the pentagram from the wall, and placed it under the black candle.

I then did the litany of darkness:

"Darkness eternal and absolute, rise and spread throughout time and space,
Darkness the force of absolute power and unlimited possibility rise and come and spread
Darkness the one that the Zanda’s call Ahriman, Darkness the ones the followers
of Ahura Mazda call Angra Mainyu, Darkness the one egypt call Kek,
Darkness the one the greek call Erebus, Darkness the one the romans called Scotus
Darkness come in all your power and glory, tare through the veil, crown me as your prophet
Ignite the darkness of my soul, possess me, enter me, empower me, so i may become
the microcosmic representation of the macro cosmic primordial darkness ".

I then sucked up and “consumed” all the dark energy that had been built up.

I saw a strange almost sort of halo and dark mass and energy around my head, black, and looking somewhat like what you might see in parts of space like some kind of nebulous cloud stuff…

I also began to feel a sort of serpentine…“wiggling” I guess come up in me as I started to move from side to side in my seat in a kind of mild dance.

During the invocation I’d seen my being become a deep black and kept getting images of my third eye looking like a red hole that was burning a livid sort of reddish orange color like seeing the light of flames from a distance and it gave me a sort of feeling of looking at an open and inflamed wound or something.

Like something on the mend that’s not quite healed but still feeling raw…

At this point I stopped and got the intuition it was enough.

I turned on the lights and let the candle burn down.

It had been tempting to throw in my Lucifuge Rofocale stuff as well at the end but I sensed this was undesirable and should be done later.

I watched Vikings, had some spaghetti and chilled out for awhile.

I did the prayers to Lucifuge, and the sphere initiation for Satariel.

I refrained from “the call onto Darkness” as it didn’t feel really necessary, I then went to bed.

(There were some other things but I’ll put that in a separate post)


Feb 6 2022 Sun;

Last night I was somewhat inspired by a video I had watched to create a small amount of banishing powder

I didn’t have all the things in the original recipe, so I made some substitutions and just followed my intuition on some things…

The original recipe:

Bay leaves
Black pepper
Black salt
Chili powder
Wasabi powdered

(Note, 13 herbs/spices, if you’re into that sort of thing)

What I ended up doing:

Ashes from particular gates I’d burned ritually
Black pepper corns
Bay leaf
Cedar berry
Cinnamon bark
Cumin seeds
Dried Datura flower
Dried mugwort previously placed on Hekate’s Altar/space (with permission)
Grave dirt
Nettle powder
Pine bark (loblolly pine)
Red chili flakes
Scorpion pepper powder
Sea salt
Tobacco (Nicotiana rustica)
Turmeric powder

As I ground the ingredients together slowly adding in one thing or other as I let my intuition pull me to things I’d sort of chant:
Be thou empowered, all these parts…sacred/holy ingredients of these arts… (Or something to that effect).

Started to slip in and out of trance states while grinding it all up in my mortar and pestle.

Once I thought I’d reached a satisfactory point and couldn’t intuit any further additions I placed the mortar and pestle on The Exiled Key to further charge and be imbued.

I’d hardly put it on the before I started to see mental overlays of black billowing steam and mist emanating out of the mortar…


I then covered it with a black cloth and let it sit over night…I’ll likely finish it up tonight. I’ll have enough for my initial use and some leftover for something else.

Last night I invoked Taroon…

I had to work at it some, but it seemed rather successful. I didn’t really receive any communication or anything though. (Tbh, my senses have been a sorta dulled but that doesn’t stop me).

This morning I realized when I woke up that I forgot to do Lucifuge’s candle for Sat…

Despite this, the feeling I got was that with all the other stuff I’ve been tacking on, it’s not that big a deal.

I will however make it up to Lucifuge all the same.


I plan on using this at least off and on.

But I need a transcript to go off of, which shall follow:

“Nameless One! Timeless One! The Dark Seed, and The Exiled One!
Invader of Existence! Ancient Devourer! Spawn of the Primordial ooze!
First to emerge was you from the abysmal depths of the inconceivable abode. Most Abominable One! Who’s true name…must never be spoken.”

"Turn your maddening gaze upon me! The gaze which pulls us through the rings of insanity, purging us of that which binds and blinds us!

“Delmava raka tuem kamash samaku fuin’feer amazag. X 3”

“Swimming Ter.ror! Flying Chaos! Clawing Savagery! Lord of the Antiverse! Paradoxical Majesty! Dark Profane Mass! I beseech you from beyond the beyond! Vessel of hollowness!
For you are BOUNDLESS!..”

Hear this prayer

"I call onto thee! The Deafening silence! UNSTOPPABLE COLOSSUS!
For not even the VOID can’t contain you…
I tempt the unknown god to awaken from its slumber! AWAKEN! AWAKEN! AWAKEN!and come"

“Delmava raka tuem kamash samaku fuin’feer amazag. X 3”

“The Noxious Dark Singularity. HEAR ME. Give unto me your dark blessing! Eye of Absolute Chaos! Mark me as your chosen one! Envelop me in your living suffocating blackness! Cloak me in garments of your formless essence…LIQUEFY reality, so ALL…ceases to BE. Hoist me up beyond the hidden temple. INJECT me with the spirit of the antiverse! So nothing may be impossible, Unobtainable, and unknowable to the Exiled Brothers and Sisters…”

Nar’resha var kuva harsha ramptah, ramptah, ramptah…"

“We DOMINATE existence with the defiling and conquering might of the Exiled Ones! Rouse forth ancient perversion. The Dark Dragon stretches its wings around me now The Mighty Beast! The ANTITHESIS of creation! Shine your thirteen black rays upon me! I invoke thee! The Acausal Behemoth of the Exiled Abode!”


Feb 7 2022 Mon:

Whoo boy!

This shit had me tingling allover just holding it in the spice dish. Damn!

(The amount pictured is only a small portion of what i made as i used it just now for my original intention)

i put the rest of what i made into a glass jar i washed out and saved from one of those small scented candles you get from walmart with a lid for 97¢. Put it in the cupboard for future use. Might be fun to tincture some of it.

I could definitely feel a lift and a sort of clarity using it just now for something.

I had a thought of sprinkling some into the threshold as a kind of ward…maybe the windows too. :thinking: Feels like its pretty potent so i dont want to be frivilous as i only made a small amount (theres about a teaspoon of it).

Near as i can tell…this petition ended up being a dud.

Maybe i didnt want it bad enough. :woman_shrugging:

The timeframe id asked for is close to ending and the target hasnt made mention of nightmares or bad sleep.

Despite this im not really dissapointed. Eh, oh well.


Feb 8 2022 Tues:

(It’s week five of the Lucifuge pact I believe)

Last night before bed I sat in darkness in silent meditation.

With eyes closed I cleared my mind as best I could and focused on the dark that was within while being mindful of the darkness without.

And silence. (As much silence a there was anyway).

When the moment felt right, I recited Connor Kendall’s Call onto the powers of darkness

I then said the nightly prayer of the Lucifuge pact.

I followed with the prayer of The Nameless One/invocation of the Exiled Best posted further up.

Finally I did the sphere right of Satariel (which I’ve been doing off and on for a couple weeks):

*Liftoach Shaari ha-Satariel B’Shem ha-Lucifuge Rofocale (x11)
[Open the Gate to Satariel in the Name of Lucifuge Rofocale]

Venire– Rofocale Rex Noctifer! Io Edom Belial! Veni, Veni, Ereshkigal—Regina Irkalla-Kurnugi! Eisheth Koheneth Ha-Arsiel! Baruch Ha-Raflifu! Ama Lilith, Liftoach Kliffoth! Aperiatur Acharayim, Et Germinet Lucerifuge!
[Come– Rofocale the Night-Bringing Monarch! Hail Edom Belial! Come, Come, Ereshkigal—Queen of the Underworld! Eisheth, High Priestess of the Black Sun! Blessed is Raflifu! Mother Lilith, Open the Qliphoth! Open the Backwards Tree, and Bring Forth Lucerifuge]

Liftoach Harasiel, B’Shem Ha-Isheth Zenanim (x11)
[Open the Saturnian Qlipha, in the Name of Isheth Zenanim]

Bitru-Guision-Edom Belial, Liftoach Satorial (x11)
[Sitri, Guision, and Adam Belial, Open the Saturnian Qlipha]

Anoki Adamas Ater (x8) [I am the Black Diamond]
Sum Lapis Philosophorum (x8) [I am the Philosopher’s Stone]*

Another thing I’ve been doing off and on lately but refrained from last night is The Invocation of Tanin’iver:

Zazas Zazas Nasatanada Zazas! (x11)

I, N.N., who have identified the dissolving impulse of the anti-cosmic Chaos as my own True Will, let now my voice sound through the inner Gate of Fire and stir the mighty Dragon Steed, Tanin’iver! I call upon and invoke the slumbering dragon that for aeons has awaited the opening of the forbidden portal!

I invoke and arouse Tanin’iver, the Blind Dragon, that by the false light of the fallen creator was blinded, but that now, once again, shall open his black flaming eyes!

I call upon the Black Dragon, who within the darkness of my Spirit shall regain his sight and, through the unification of the sword and the chalice, fully open the reabsorbing Eye of Chaos! I conjure up and awaken the forgotten and hidden Dragon Force, whose shadow coils within the inner sea of fire that is my Spirit!

which is below, and thus reestablish the purity of the Primal Formlessness!

I call forth the black-winged dragon from my own Spirit’s bottomless pit and with the acosmic light of the Black Flame, I heal the eyes that by the white darkness were blinded at the beginning of time! In the name of all manifested forces of the Wrathful Chaos and possessed by the inner, formless black fire, I now let my voice penetrate the darkness of the abyss and awaken and arouse the forbidden Dragon Force!

Tanin’iver Liftoach Nia! (x11)

Tanin’iver, Dragon Steed of Lilith, I invoke you!

Awaken now from your forced slumber! Rise up and with the fires of the Black Light, burn to ash the demiurgic shackles that for aeons have bound, limited and imprisoned your awesome power! Open up your black diamond eyes that are the gates to the eternal emptiness and darkness of The Unmanifest, and with your fatal glance, bring annihilation to the illusion that is the imprisoning creation of the demiurge!

Tanin’iver I invoke and arouse you!

Rise up within me and let my Will to boundless power become the driving force of your awakening and ascension!

Let your venomous essence that boils within my blood erupt like a volcano and let your fire rush forth through the seven gates of my soul!

Cleanse me from all the impurities of causal existence and burn to ash all that stands in the way of the great, unlawful unification!

Tanin’iver, I invoke and awaken you!

Unfold now your black wings! Uncoil, rise and eternally eclipse the false light that has blinded our eyes!

Rise up from the dark mists of oblivion, O you who are the Black Dragon-force of the poisonous and flaming waters of Gamaliel, and ignite within me the inferno that shall set all worlds aflame! Tanin’iver, let now the force of your terrifying wrath crush all the gates and barriers that block the path of your ascension, and in the name of Taninsam, imbue my whole existence with the demonic essence and power of your awakening!

Tanin’iver, blinded Dragon Steed of Sitra Ahra, hear now my calling, as I let my voice cut, like a thousand piercing blades, through the unconscious stillness in which you have slumbered for so long!

Rise up within me, O you formless dragon of Black Flame, and let the essence of your anti-cosmic Spirit possess me and eliminate all my clay-born limitations!

Open your eyes! Open my Eye! Open the black shell and carry up within your bloody jaws the flaming pearl of my Spirit, through the gates that by the power of Satanic Will now have become opened!

Elevate my Spirit through the seven gates and liberate me through and beyond the unification of the opposites!

Tanin’iver, let your illuminating darkness storm within me and banish the archonic powers that have as their aim to hinder my liberation and acosmic becoming!

Dragon of Darkness, let your awakening open the Eye of the Destroyer and fulfill the ancient and most dreaded prophecy!

Unite the Dark Waters of Gamaliel with the Black Light and Fire of Thaumiel, and let my Spirit become as one with the power generated by the unification of Satan and Lilith!

Tanin’iver, in the name of Azerate, I invoke, awaken and arouse you!

Let now your full awakening and the regaining of your sight, through the opening of my Eye, usher the return of All back towards the Endless Dark Aeon!

Tanin’iver, open our Eyes!

As I lay in bed I did a round on my mala of Lilith’s enn (x108) before falling asleep.

I dreamt a lot of strange shit that I don’t remember a lot of and I was up and down quite a bit throughout the night. I can recall seeing 2 and 3am on the clock.

I was apparently working in some establishment that may have been a restaurant cuz I remember having to change out trash.

But the thing that really stood out was walking through some ramshackle hall or alley in an environment vaguely reminiscent of an abandoned mall.

On the ground I saw a rather large crystal and when I picked it up I saw there was a mouthpiece for a smoking pipe (hell there may have been a whole pipe), and when I looked back down there was a whole damn pile of them (mouthpieces, some in a resin or crystals). In addition there seemed to be other mouthpieces kinda like the reeds for some wind instruments.

Mostly it was for pipes though.

Not sure how to interpret that.

There may have been something about a cat?

When I finally got up from bed I almost felt like I’d been drugged, and it took awhile for that feeling to wear off. I also felt like I was really tapped into something else.

Notably as I lay in bed delaying the inevitable and having to get up there was a rather pronounced pressure on my forehead.

(I don’t properly recall, but I think I may have felt some sense of presence or presences before I drifted off)

Ive felt this sort of thing before on other occasions when I’ve really been getting after it.

I’ve felt something like a magnetic energy pole inside my head to where I could tell exactly where it was spatially while my crown felt magnetized.

I’ve also had occasions where a pressure has been on the crown of my head like wearing a heavy helmet :military_helmet:.

There was also an occasion once where after doing something related to Azazel I lay in bed and saw a black energetic ribbon wind around me and feed into my third eye with an electric sensation forming as I saw and felt little sparks flying off it. Wild shit.

Earlier before all that day previously, I had used my newly made banishing powder with a black candle for a rite that involved a couple different things.

The candle was reversed and inscribed with Thurisaz.

Anointed with the banishing powder and olive oil.

Around the mirorr plate with the candle (the candle sitting in the center and atop an eightspoked wheel of Thurisaz moving widdershins…) a mix of salt and the banishing powder was in a ring.

I did the demonic lbrp as before (though I find this one a bit lacking somehow so I may need to rework it for my tastes and purposes)

I again played The Azazel Mantra in the background.

I felt a nudge to call on Lucifuge and to invoke him.

Previously I’d tried invoking him some days ago but was told “you’re not ready. Wait…” Or something along those lines.

I said a few rounds of his enn (eyen tasa valocur Lucifuge Rodocale), and ad-libbed some kind of invocation.

I felt the need to call on Azazel

I keep getting the impression that Lucifufe and Azazel very much go hand in hand…

Kinda makes sense to be honest as Azazel is very much a spirit of the darkness, and his lore has him as having been thrown deep into the abyss. He very much is an abyssal spirit…

I was going to invoke Azazel as well but felt this was discouraged.

At any rate I said 108 reputations of “Itz Rel Itz Rel Azazel”

I then proceeded to gaze into the candle flame and make up some kind of incantation on the spot. I fed it the negative energy that was around me or be directed at me. I started pulling down black energy from the air using my hands.

Interestingly, once the intention was set and the candle programmed it seemed to siphon off a lot of black mist/energy that it was pulling out from my lower Dan Tien. For awhile off and on I’ve been getting weird impressions from my lower Dan Tien like something was in there or it had been weakened or drained somehow.

While this was going on, I was aware of a black mist sitting on my crown chakra/head. I kinda took this to be Lucifuge…it was definitely the impression that something was sitting on my head but not in any illmeaning way…

(MORE) I kept getting nudged…

I then fed the candle various negative emotions as I would summon up the energetic echo of those emotions within me.


I then tried to push out whatever else I could into it.

I finally got a point where I felt done and couldn’t muster much more.

It was very clear to me that what I had set up and made had way more potential than I was currently utilizing and had some serious power, and potential.

The feeling I got from them was something to the likes of “well,…it’s good enough, but you could’ve done more/better”

I basically had to admit I was a little in over my head. “Well, I’m spent.” :woman_shrugging:

(By no means a failure though)


Feb 9 2022 Wed:

Last night I almost decided to lay off for a bit, but then changed my mind.

Despite my fatigue I went whole hog and doubled down.

I said the nightly prayer (Lucifuge).

Did the call onto the powers of darkness.

I then used the invocation of Darkness from the “challenge of darkness”.

Did three repetitions of the aforementioned Azazel Mantra

The prayer of the Nameless One/invocation of the Exiled One.

I followed up with the invocation of Tanin’iver.

I then said the three different prayers for Lucifuge, and ended with the sphere rite for Satariel.

I don’t remember my dreams, and though I slept like a log I woke up feeling tired.

I definitely recall a sense of being taught or having some kind of discussions in my dreams. But I don’t remember any specifics.

When I got home, one of the other tenants who I’ve gotten somewhat tired of was out so I snuck over to his door and used some of my banishing powder (a la goofer dust) and said “I banish thee, tarry not here. Begone and get thee hence!”. Now we wait… :smiling_imp:

Today I’ve received my copy of “Pomba Gira and the Quimbanda of Mumba Nzila”.

For the most part I’ve chosen to keep quiet at this point about Pomba Gira so as not to disrupt the current flow of this journal.

I may make a separate journal for Pomba Gira depending on how things develop. Already I think I see a couple of things that stand out with a brief perusal of the book.


Feb 10 2022 Thurs:

Last night I backed off a bit and only did the nightly prayer. (Still need to do my invocation for this week)

Despite this, it seems Ive really got the ball rolling at this point.

Once again, though sleeping like a log I woke up fatigued.

This time I dreamt a lot of wirrd stuff but it seemed like I was in some place that functioned as a place of learning sprawled about between various houses or whatever.

At one point I was seated in a class or meeting of some sort with a computer and headset while a girl was getting ready to go e some type of lecture.

Before that I’d been getting around with a loose ragtag group of kids (everyone seemed to be college age but everything felt very highschool somehow).

At one point I’d walked through a house with a large Santissma Muerte altar.

Outside, someone I may have been following was absolutely reaming this other guy for thinking he knew shit or was a badass just because he was working with the things he was working with while being a total greenhorn. “You really think saying (some phrase) and doing _____ really makes you legit?” And on and on. This guy getting dressed down was a larger headset dude with glasses who went from wearing a cocky goofy grin to looking like a child that realized he’d fucked up…the whole time I kept thinking “glad I’m not this dude…”

I don’t recall in what sequence but I came upon a stage or Daise that had two rather tall, sorta lanky African men dressed in a sort of tribal regalia. They looked like some kind of emmisaries and their clothing seemed to include a sort of decorative pads and whatnot. They wore a mix of faded black and a dark sort of forest green in a motif of half and half colors.
(I couldn’t find an image that was close, I’d probably have to draw what they were wearing)

In various places their regalia depicted faces not unlike some African mask, and these faces had small horns protruding out of their foreheads. They honestly gave me a slight “Loki” vibe some how. That tricksterishness

(This image is very close but the mouths were closed…)

When I saw them I immediately knew they were somehow related to Eshu/Elegua.

One of them holding a staff (maybe it was a spear) seemed to be talking to some one either giving instructions or discussing something of importance. The other man stayed silent in the background and the patterns on their regalia seemed to be opposite of each other (colors swapped).

These guys were clearly very important and had a lot of say in this place.

At another point I was stopped by a young tall man who seemed to have a hall monitor type of duty and asked me to produce some identification. I assured him I was legit but seemed to be having a hard time finding my ID, but eventually did. He looked annoyed, and was giving me a very hard stare but let it go and moved on.

That’s about all I recall.

I’m amused that after using my banishing powder at my neighbor’s door he’s suddenly been rather quiet (usually he’s a bit noisy).

And the day previous he was actually out for a lot of the day rather coincidentally…

Also, I think he may have come down with something and gotten sick…

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Feb 13th 2022 Sun:

3 days til the full moon :full_moon_with_face:

“Your training is NOTHING. WILL is EVERYTHING! The WILL to ACT.” -Ra’s Al Ghoul

“Education, is the ability to meet life’s situations…” -some fortune cookie

I dialed it back for two days but picked things back up last night.

Gave Lucifuge his candle sat night.

I invoked Gusion…

It fel very good to invoke Prince Gusion, and I think I might need to do more with him…

With everything I did by the end there was a lot of energy.

I don’t recall everything I dreamt, but there was something about a concert I was trying to get to and I may have been traveling. I also had some kind of make out session with an older woman. I was very into her legs it seemed…

Once again last night I did the sphere rite for Satariel. I’ve been doing it pretty steady for a couple weeks now. The natural inclination would be to move in to Gogiel/Aogiel ruled by Beelzebub. But…I feel like a jaunt back up the spheres from Nahemoth would be a good idea instead. In which case I might make a path working of it. To some extent or other…

Today marks the first day of the last week of this Lucifuge pact, and while it’s tempting to extend it or do another run with some changes the feeling I get is that this would currently be undesirable and not necessary.

Ill need to figure out my next direction after this, but for now I intend to keep it dialed up for the remainder.

I have been contemplating some angelic work but feel that I need to keep on this current direction. Regardless I do want to reach out to AA Gabriel…during one of my last LBRPs Gabriel seemed to give me a good sign about this I think.

I also need to reach out to Prince Orobas again as he seemed interested in working with me. Currently, the remainder of the bottle of wine I got for him sits on the altar.

I’ve been feeling very balanced lately and I’m pretty sure it’s because of that candle I burned with the banishing powder and Lucifuge and Azazels help.

The other day I’d bought a lottery ticket just for the hell of it (spoiler: I got zilch), and I had a strange moment where in thinking about it I adopted the mindset that I was going to win or at least money was sure to come to me and got caught up in a bit of fantasizing where I felt the confidence of abundance and thought about how I would leverage/utilize my wealth.

It felt like there was a teaching moment going on here with all the fantasy. It felt good to explore this feeling of surety, success and abundance. Good stuff.

I’d made a petition/calling to Suhn Tal’ock awhile ago in regard to some short term goals and kinda wonder if this was him (Clauneck is also possible…).

Some things I’ve been considering is doing some magic on behalf of some folks I haven’t seen in a long time. Admittedly this is probably more for me in a way.

I’m tempted to ask Lilith (or one of the other queens) for one of her ubi. Probably as a familiar…(funnily enough, when having recently expressed this, I seemed to be told that there are 3…around me? Interested? I dunno. I seemed to miss something…)