I’m not sure what it is, but I know it is an entity separate from myself. It’s not something I created. I’m a very intuitive and sensitive person, and after dealing with the parasite for so long I know it is something nasty and not part of myself. I understand that when dealing with parasites there is always a psychological aspect involved as sometimes people can create these things, or they are actually a part of themselves. In my case, it is simply an astral parasite which is extremely stubborn and tricky.
Would love to work with Murmur (or anyone skilled at removing entities). What would you suggest is the best way to do that without evocation?
Last night I tried focusing on Azazel’s sigil and calling out to him. I repeated offered this entity as a sacrifice to him. Naturally after some time, the parasite kicked up, thrashed around my body and spoke. It said all kinds of crap including calling Azazel foul names, and asked Azazel’s permission to leave. It said it would leave, etc. It lies all the time however, so of course it didn’t leave and eventually went back to spouting it’s normal “I will never leave” bullshit. After about 2 hours I just ran out of energy and was tired of giving the parasite any control over me (I hate letting it speak through me). This is why I am leery of doing evocation or anything similar.