This is something I mentioned in my other thread where I talk about my near death experience as a child.
I honestly don’t know whether I have a REAL recollection of the event or not. I was told about it at a very early age, and people continue to bring it up any time I do something that may or may not result in my death lol.
When it happened, whether it’s a memory or a dream… I don’t remember lying on the table. I remember seeing it happen from a third person point of view.
Now, back in high school I was crazy depressed. Which is what led to me dropping out in the end. I can say I dropped out to take care of my sister, but that was only part of it. The bottom line is that I was just sick of everything. The friends, the teachers, the bullies…
I slept a lot during classes. In the end my teachers didn’t bother waking me, they knew there was no point.
Due to the fact that I was groggy and still sleepy, between classes I would… Actually I can say it was due to anything. I don’t know why it would happen.
But between classes, and sometimes in class… It would feel like I left my body. Like I was hovering over my own shoulder watching everything happen around me from a third person point of view.
And it’s not like I had to be still for it to happen. At times it would happen while I was walking. My body didn’t stop, I could fall back and it would keep going (yes, I experimented a bit…).
Here’s the thing, when ever I came back I felt odd. I had this overwhelming hollow feeling, and I would feel tingly ALL OVER. As if something had stimulated every single nerve ending in my body. I’d be cold, freezing. Even to the touch, I remember handing a friend a pen in class, and he pulled back because my hand was so cold to the touch. Yet… Sometimes when I came back I was broke right out in a sweat, but I’d still be freezing.
I wonder if it’s possible that THIS is tied to my near death experience.
I have no memories of my childhood, other than the strange occurrences that I shared with a few of you on here (Eva and Sev). I don’t remember THIS ever happening as a child. But I also remember nothing from my childhood other than the things that… haunted me for lack of a better word.
Even now this happens. But it’s different. It’s linked to the slowing of my heart rate. I can make it happen when ever I feel like it. And it doesn’t take such a toll on my body any more. The tingly sensation doesn’t occur any more, and neither do the sweats. When I come back I’m still freezing, and I still feel hollow.
Like someone took a shovel dug a huge hole in my chest.
