@Woodsman81 There is no known LD 50 for benzos alone. All benzo related deaths combined other substances with them, usually heroin (my favorite, especially in combo with benzos, alcohol, and lots of strong pharmaceutical opioids). I have been (and currently am) prescribed 8mg/4 xanny bars per day to control panic disorder. It’s opioids/opiates (yes, there is a difference) that is supposed to be the “killer combo”, yet I shot 1.5-2 grams of potent heroin every day while co-administering Xanax in 20 mg/10 xanny bars in single doses, eating that many xanax per dose while eating roxys/oxycodone, demerol, morphine, and so on and doing big, fat, yo-yo shots of H (the 1.5-2 grams of heroin per day was distributed throughout the day and night in 5-6 shots of 3-4/10th of a gram shots, often with liquor and other drugs. My shot was 3 bags/caps per shot of good heroin (I was a dealer for a long time) in single doses, normally eating 10 xanax bars and powerful opioid painkillers for decades, every day, all day. I’m still alive and was even able to do those amounts and keep my money and my dope man’s money straight, conduct business, and not get busted, I even drove my truck around making deliveries). I would even add the fentanyl analogs (some stronger than pharm grade fent) to the mix. I was all kinds of fucked up for decades. Kratom, IME, is a health food store joke if you have a real opie tolerance. Being that big of a junkie is nothing to be proud of, it’s just how I made a living and did lots of my favorite drugs for free (I was also a Veterinary Technician for 5 years and had access to Sleep Away, an injectable cocktail of the real barbs like Seconal, Nembutal, Amytal… that we euthanized animals with because I was among the few people in the Veterinary Hospital I worked at that had access to and was authorized to administer these and other drugs like Ketamine, Acepromazine (both dissociatives), hydrocodone without APAP, since animals can’t metabolize the OTC shit like APAP, ibuprophen, etc… and it would kill them), injectable valium, etc…
With that said, I find high doseages of powerful opioids helps me personally get into a meditative state much easier while “on the nod”, but still not drooling on myself (your results may vary). I say, if it works for you, go for it, and everything should be otc. If you OD and die, that’s on you and not my fault. I also don’t understand all the contradictory info (group A says "oh, drugs are a no-no t, group B says it’s fine. I personally think such statements come from hoe a person feels about drugs. If you’re against drugs/dependcy/addiction, you’ll say "oh, so and so demon hates that. I think it’s subjective to the person more than a spirit entity). Are we to lead a life devoid of pleasure? Might as well be a monk in a Monastery. That’s why I take the “Sid Vicious” approach and do it my way. As I’ve said, powerful opioids in a high enough dose (but not where you’re stupid high) actually help me get to what would be impossible or really hard sober (like meditation, TGS I guess). Call me lazy, call me a druggie, I don’t care (even tho I do medically need opioids and benzos and have the medical records to back it up, I do like getting high a couple times a week/few times a month).