Hey everyone! first time poster here, go easy lol. i’m in a difficult situation and need help on which path to take in re-establishing communication with an ex. Heres the story in short: Me and my ex were in a 5 year long distance relationship. Heres the crazy part - we never met. not even once. We were hopeless lovers and bestfriends. We were incredibly in love and obsessed with eahcother. She was finally coming back where we could have met for the first time, but she had lost emotional attraction and dumped me. Now, we were on good terms post breakup, I was in that painful “friends” zone, but we were good. I wasn’t begging or pleading, but was just very sad and disappointed. she knew I was becoming suicidal but I hid it.
One day I became incredibly desperate and overwhelmed and her being my first true love, I couldn’t take it anymore and selfishly decided to overdose in a plan to end my life. I ended up in hospital for two weeks without a phone and my friend (not my ex) sent her a nasty message because he was furious when he found out what I had tried to do. She thought that message was on my behalf and she lost it. She blocked me everywhere and left a message saying she wants nothing to do with me. She said shed never block me or stop talking to me and asked me not to leave her life, so this message would have really triggered her. My friend refused to show me what he had sent. I didn’t know this happened until I was out of hospital. I had no way of contacting her to tell her that my friend had absolutely no right to message her.
Basically, my goal is for her to unblock me, so we can talk about it (or not). its not fair, and I wont give up. I want to simply be back in contact, like we were post breakup. I realised how selfish and childish and immature I looked, trying to end myself - I know this had a fairly decent part in scaring her off, but the main reason she left was because of that message my friend sent. We no longer talk, so ive lost two really important people. A simple spell wouldn’t help, would it? Her subconscious would know its being manipulated and would fight with everything until it breaks free. (please correct me if im wrong). I was leaning more into working with AMON or SALLOS… I’ve heard nothing but great things about them both. I’m also interested with intranquil spirirts… i need a forceful approach. What do you guys think for me? what’s the strongest route to take? please save the “move on” comments. its been 3 months since the block, and I’m in a much better state in my mind. I’m calm, relaxed, confident, and even somewhat excited. Thanks heaps!
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