26th June, 2022
19:22
My exams are over, I’m done with first year. Since a few days I’ve been seeing readings on YouTube where the topic of healing and resting was coming up quite frequently. I was wondering what I need to heel, I hadn’t been feeling low or anything like that so I was puzzled. Last night though, everything made sense.
I was very focused on my exams and just pushing and pushing to get things done. Study for college, do readings for whichever client I got, do my part for a pact, working with Satan and recent new deities and it was all so so much, I wasn’t aware of any of it.
But after finishing the exam yesterday, and a party my friends and I had for our seniors, I was exhausted. I wanted nothing more than to comfortably be sleeping warm and happy. I was relieved, but a little worry about my exam results was already starting to build up and my guide snapped me out of it.
Rest, rest, now is the time for rest. I’ve done everything I possibly can do get the best result, magickally and physically, now I just need to rest and allow it to happen.
I finished my 1st semester exams when I was in the middle of the qliphoth, I remember this because I was writing to a friend about it and I took a break. Now I’m finished with my 2nd semester and haven’t even progressed to a 3rd of the gatekeepers.
Apart from the regular stress of life I’ve also been experiencing a bit of body dysmorphia. I had forgotten about it but I had a call with my mum and she brought up my weight and stuff again and it sort of triggered it all again. And it also made me feel a little ugh about the fact that I’ll be at home for a whole month.
I’ll push through it too, be it good or bad. I have done it before I’ll do it again, no worries.
But for now I will rest. I will let my magick unfold on it’s own and let it guide me to do what’s necessary. I feel a new chapter that will begin soon in my life, so I have to reap the rewards of what I had sown before I can start my new adventure.
That’s all for this entry folks. I hope you have a good day ahead.