Finally signed up today. This forum has been a goldmine of information, along with the videos and books I’ve been taking in.
I’ve been practicing more Right Hand oriented magic since my middle school years. I had dropped off for a while as life took over, but got back into a few years ago (I’m 22, female).
Despite never being a Christian, I had a lot of Christian programming regarding demons. What broke through that completely was Lucifer.
I had a hard time even saying his name out loud as the societal implications were extremely prevalent. Magic was never an issue. Last year, a servitor I made had gotten me an amazing apartment that I live in now.
Then this year, after getting even more into my workings, I had developed a drinking problem. I was already smoking weed every single day, several times a day to avoid the realities of being present. It was getting expensive so I turned to alcohol.
This led to several blackouts a week, arguments with my neighbors, hiding from friends and family and overall a sharp downward turn in my personal life. Somewhere along, I found a guided meditation that would lead me to contact with Lucifer. I thought “fuck it” and drank a bit before going for it. Three times, I did this and had fallen asleep only to wake up as it was ending.
The fourth time, I was able to complete it. The contact made turned sexual very fast. I cleared my mind a few times to make sure my own thoughts weren’t impeding in, but every time I cleared my mind, it went right back to where we left off.
Somewhere in the middle, I was switched to observing us when a white dragon’s head came into my view, blocking my sight. It opened its eye, and where the whites were, there was a swirling galaxy instead. It was amazing, and soon after the mediation ended.
Within a week, I had gotten caught drinking at work despite never being careless before. I then took a 5 day vacation to reset myself, and when I returned to my apartment, my mom and I cleaned the mess I had made, built the furniture I bought, and now I have a space that I find comfort and joy in being in.
I believe this wouldn’t have happened had I not asked for help from Lucifer. My life was flipped briefly before becoming anew and I am so excited to see what growth is possible with Him, and the multitude of other beings out there.
Sorry for the long read!! Hope this finds you well!