I’ve come across this forum multiple times in the last few weeks, and finally took the hint to just go ahead and sign up.
I’ve practiced off and on for years, but recently have come back and want to practice consistently.
There’s a lot of basics that I know, but in the past I always relied on my Tarot to guide me, and not much casting. My ex though forced me to give up my deck that I had for 10 years, and wouldn’t let me use oils, incense, or candles (even unscented because he claimed they gave him headaches). So I lost a lost of touch.
I’ve come to a crossroads of a sort. You see, I’ve been facing some horrible situations in life where I have been incredibly wronged and hurt. My ex assaulted me, and we are going through court for his domestic violence charge and the order of protection I took out for the safety of my children and I. But, it’s not enough. He has enlisted many people in harassing me, trying to get me evicted from our home, caused me to lose my job, and is generally over all slandering my name. I’ve always primarily stuck to castings such as protection spells, requests for insight on situations, for help with anxiety/depression, etc.
I’ve meditated consistently on this, and I keep becoming more and now assured I need to take a different, some say darker, approach. I want retribution for what he did to me, the pain and damage he caused. I know that what I send out can always come back to me. I’m willing to accept any consequences that may come with this. I don’t want to harm him, cause death, or anything like that. I simply want to make him lose as much as he made me lose, and each time I’ve meditated on this, I’ve been brought here.
Is there anybody that can help me? Entities to reach to for help, spells to cast?