Ok so I guess this is my book of shadows in a way, I wanted to do this to force myself to stick with it and if anyone’s interested they can read
Environment: on my bed doing everything in the mind (just works for me better to stay in trance than physically moving)
Ritual: 15 mins Wim hof, NAP ritual, invite magick mentor, kaballistic cross, 5 gates/pillars fountain, change colour and magick name, chant and then I followed with a merkaba activation from Brian Scott that is nothing to do with nap
Experience: Meeting my mentor… so she’s an old woman I’ve seen before in dreams and randomly in mind. Maybe an ancestral spirit … apparently her name is Lilian. I wanted to call her Lily… not sure if I’m allowed. White/grey hair tied up in a bun and a long black dress. Guess she’s my spirit guide… pretty cool as I have wondered before but never really consciously made much contact. She stayed after I did the crossing so pretty safe.
Didn’t have much to say other than hi and she helped me still my mind when I asked for assistance from a thought that was interrupting
My chants/planetary colour were about love
Then it’s not NAP but I felt to do the merkaba activation meditation … it’s really long and I got lost tbh but hopefully my higher self caught it. In places it was very powerful and tangible. Couldn’t finish it but will repeat again. Seems worth it but will take some understanding
No astral travels annoyingly yet. Oh well… bedtime, will hope for a lucid dream