I’ve been stuggling with money issues(kind of) for a while now.
Today I had some come in and decided to buy a bottle of liquor for my Patron(I hope he is, even if I fucked up).
Here’s what happened:
After I bought the substitute liquor, I had strong urge to go gambling slots.
I put in 1/3rd= lost.
Put 2nd/3rd= lost.
Put my last into the slots and just as I’m bout to give up, I win a little.
I said in my head, I need to win my money back.
It’s like I heard the voice of king Paimon say “okay, you got it”.
I keep on gambling and reach the point where I broke even.
Next thing I know I’m losing like crazy, I have King Paimon in my mind all this time and I feel sad as hell and like I’m about to lose consciesness right as I’m playing.
All of a sudden, for whatever reason, I yell out in my mind "Belial, Help!’’.
I felt like a “Get the fuck out of my way”-kind of energy and I doubled my money.
I was happy for a moment but like a real dumbass, I wasn’t happy.
Right before I lost it all, it’s like I could see the disappointment and they left…
Is there still hope or have I fucked up bad?