We know that NDE’s and OBE’s can be induced by orgasm just as easily as they can by using a psychoactive like acacia root for example. I have found that, in my personal experience, if we partake of a psychoactive before we induce orgasm and we orgasm during erotic asphyxiation the NDE’s/OBE’s triggered are stellar.
Of course, this is not everyone’s brew and most will not speak of it, which astounds me. I am in no way suggesting that the members of BALG go out tonight and wrap plastic bags around their heads and masturbate under moonlight, of course not, although, the effects of a collective energy drawn from a mass erotic death working would be quite interesting to behold…im sure. And this brings me to my point or i should say this brings me to the point of today’s ravings. Death is the ultimate orgasm and also the ultimate high!
I have experienced a shared, orgasm induced NDE/OBE whilst performing a working. This with a partner of the same sex (it doesnt have to be). The result of this working was a shared vision, which I will come to. This working involved the use of a psychoactive mixed with dried blood taken from both of us and then smoked. More on this as we proceed but firstly, i am again, in no way suggesting that any of you do this. This was a consential decision taken by two women with a lifelong invested interest in erotic death majik and who have a healthy respect and mutual trust for and of each other.
I will write this in two ways. As it happened and also as an instruction of sorts for those who wish to try it but this is exactly as it happened.
We had for weeks prior to the working focused our intent not on the outcome but rather on the act to come itself. Intent X3!! I cant repeat myself enough on the importance of Intent. Intent, the violent pleasures of the working. The drawing and taking of energy from each other and the death current. We abstained from all physical sexual unions for this time but increased our ‘flirting’ and intensely so. We chased each other ,like two planetary bodies, infinitely circling but drawing closer and closer on each passing turn. If you have ever experienced this then you will know that the energy manifesting between these two bodies is highly charged, highly erotic and the continual separation is brutal and delicious, like ripened sweet figs on the tongue.
On the night of the working we used a large granite mortar and burned a mixture of dried bay leaves from my kitchen cupboard and sage. We let this burn in the room that the working was to take place in. My partner had prepared two cups of peppermint tea which we took together whilst we prepared a herbal bath that we would take together as well.
IMPORTANT NOTE: Do not engage in any sexual union at this point!! Even though the temptation to do so will be maddening.
The herbs that you use for the bath are of your own choosing. You could make a simple parsley infusion if you like. Bunch of parsley in a pot and cover with hot water and add one (1) sliced parsley root. Let this stand for about 10 minutes, strain and add this water to your bath.
IMPORTANT NOTE: Please do not use this infusion if you are pregnant or suspect that you may be pregnant!!!
Alternatively, and just as potent is vervain and verbena infusion _ purification and protection. While in the bath take turns to pour water over each others body and repeat your intention. I promise you that it will be worth it.
Light the first smoke and savour it. Remember, during this time you want to be focused on your intent not outcome, do not lose focus! All the same, you are, for this working evoking Lilith, it is she who you will call upon and as such you must offer dedications to her in the firm of incantation. Choose a moment while in the bath to collectively chant your chosen incantation. As i said previously, the simplest forms of majik are often the most rewarding, in my opinion of course. If you do not have an incantation that speaks to you then do it from the heart. Write it yourself, prior to this evening and focus all of your intent into the writing. Build the bridge from words made of intent. This to me is far more potent in its effectiveness. Spend as much time in the bath as you choose, do not hurry the process.
Now, when you are done with the bath you may choose to rub each other with oil of your choosing. Again, remember your intention! Mantra mantra mantra… Draw energy from one another and use your incantation.
We made our way to the room where the working would take place. The bay/sage mixture had already burned through and the smoke lay thick in the air. We chose to cast a circle. Our reason was to try and control as much of the energy as we could in a specified area. The circle was cast using an athame pointed to the ground and this was all. At the time we used an athame cast from copper, the significance of which is obvious but in retrospect i believe it would have had no less impact had the athame been cast from stainless steel, for example. This because our intent was poured into that blade. We had prepared, again prior to this night and with intent, two hand rolled smokes. They were filled with the infusion of dried bay leaves, dried acacia root and dried blood, as i mentioned earlier, taken from the two of us. The blood was our offering to the mistress of death. There will be many who will probably recoil in perverted morality at this but understand, there was an intimate fragility in this condition.
I ask again, how far are you prepared to go to truly find the thing that you are so desperately searching for? Will you live in fear and in abject ignorance because you shy away from the very thing that you seek? I would hope not!
Without the circle we had placed candles at each station. Within the circle we had placed a blanket, a pillow, the second smoke, and the athame along with two lengths of rope. Each of these items had been cleansed and dedicated with our intention placed upon them prior to the working. We sat upon the blanket facing each other, legs wrapped around each others waist. I faced west and she faced west. Sacred fire, sacred serpent. We lit the second smoke. We repeated our incantation three times slowly and finished the smoke on the last words. We reached for each other then.I have used these words before. Desire, coiled up in death! This was her! This was me! We made love to the rhythm of that drum that beats inside all of us.
At some point during the evocation she had slit my finger with the athame and had done so to herself as well. I tasted blood, on my lips, on my tongue and when we kissed. We placed the ropes around our necks and tightened the knots at front. Oxygen starvation was immediate but slow. Pleasure! A confrontation both sensual and deadly. This went on for a while. The pleasure was pooling in my pelvic area, my stomach, my spine and head and i slipped over the edge and fell and fell and fell…
She uttered something inaudible and the sound vibrated through me, it was just a whisper. A moment passed and then i heard it again and my eyes flew open. I do not know what was said and she cant remember it but i do know that it wasnt her that spoke. The moment of that realisation was also at the height of asphyxiation and we orgasmed together. At the peak of climax there was what i can only describe as a pulse of light, purple and gold, behind my eyes. It was accompanied by a very heavy presence in the room and then the vision.
Im off to make something in the fire. I’ll be back a litte later to finish.