Random Tidbit -- ANRE130215A: I Will Wait
When my best friend died, I was pretty heartbroken. She got stage 4 cancer out of nowhere at 19. We’d just graduated high school. Her favorite band was Mumford & Sons at the time. She listened to it all day every day.
I drove around a lot when I was stressed, the act of driving with the windows down on a Tennessee night just calmed my nerves. That month I must’ve explored every backroad in our hometown. I was driving home one night the weekend after we buried her (on Valentine’s day of all days), stopped at a stoplight in my old, raggedy Jeep that barely clung to life. The engine was quieter than usual, and I was left to my thoughts and the slightly unwelcome, invisible stranger that rode shotgun. I decided to turn on the radio. Ads. I changed the station. More ads. I just wanted something to get my mind off of everything. I kept playing over and over again the last thing she said to me in ICU, where I rushed out because I wanted to see my boyfriend for Valentines day. The Iight stayed red for what felt like forever, and I found myself gunning it as it turned green, as if hitting the gas harder would jerk the thoughts out of my head.
Suddenly a song came on the radio–one I hadn’t heard in a while. The Jeep rolled to a stop on the side of the road and I cried.
Improved Sage Results
The "What" and "Why"
Wound up saging the house per some suggestions on the forum, and it really changed the game. The first time I did it a few weeks ago I didn’t get much “impact,” but when I cleansed the house (and myself) two nights ago I noticed considerable changes.
The only unintended, negative impact is that I haven’t had any dreams the past two nights, though I’m chalking it up to a fluke.
So, two nights ago I did the sage everything was great into the next morning. Then there was this weird, nasty thing that shown up. It was super heavy in terms of its energy, and tried to masquerade as Mysterious. So I went through the process again and had similar results. I wound up skimming the forum and finding some posts that I think are worth sharing. I’m Joe-Shmoe here, but I still gotta cite my sources.
I had to go down a bit of a rabbit hole to find these, but I went through and cleansed… Figured out that if you don’t make wards (like a dummy) those assholes are just going to come right back. After spending some time searching the forum, I found this magnificent post:
I swore it was an entity, and since there is this nonsense of a “witch” going around, I wasn’t sure if it was related. Of course, I don’t think it’s a real witch, I just don’t know what it actually is other than the symbols I’ve seen.
So, using the above method, I managed to manifest some creatures that could be guards. It was an UNBELIEVABLE experience. I’m quite pleased with the results.
My intention was to cleanse the house of entities that were “lying to me, trying to decieve me, trying to harm me, or just is bad energy.” I didn’t realize there was a bunch of negative energy here until it was gone.
If I’m being honest, I was trying to see if Mysterious was going to be able to stay through the wards and cleanse. When I was done, he’s sitting there when it’s over like:
I created the wards around myself in a different part of the house than the one he was staying in, then continued on with my day to day. Everything seemed fine. He wasn’t gone though. Nor was he phased by the beasts.
“I passed your stupid test…You desperately want me to be the bad guy in this story, don’t you?”
The answer, kids, is yes.
“What is it going to take?”
Unfair answer: I don’t know.
Me = Guard 1 ; Mysterious = Guard 2
This Princess BS
The Qabalistic Truth
I have been spending a lot of time beating my head over the weird things that I’ve been seeing in the dream timeline, and the interactions I’ve had with the 72. I’m super lazy and haven’t been posting my progress, but there has been progress. If you actually follow my posts (1 - thank you, 2 - what is wrong with you), you can see an exchange that happened between myself and another member of the forum about this “princess” stuff that came up.
My Experience with the 72 Evocation Challenge
I went out and bought this book, read it, and was amazed. Lots of parallels. Lots of things. Symbols. Words. Meanings. Still figuring that out. I sometimes wonder if it could be possible that these dreams are the current reality being viewed through a weird lense. If so, when am I going to be as successful as she is in her career because honestly sometimes ya girl struggling to get by emotionally y’know?
On that heifer, God.
On that same note of interpretations, some of you may have seen me lurking and liking old AF posts. That is how the ItsAlexThe7 do. Collect a bunch of information, disappear for a time, then come down from the mountain with something that I think sounds great and until I think it sounds dumb and start all over again.
So somehow these posts came across my dashboard:
Can you kill a spiritual being?
My 9/11 Work - Part 1
Meet the Troll-- DRAGON God Yahweh
I haven’t seen all of the older gems that are lingering in the forum, but when I noticed the post about killing a god, I was intrigued. It lead me down the rabbit hole. The first article lead me to the second, which lead to the 3rd… MAN, when I read the third’s summary I was #shook (I haven’t read the article linked yet).
I wrote a post about Nibanae, the force behind the entities that
Sam is fighting in the dream timeline. Basically think of a “personification of chaos” at its basic form, right? Sounds dumb. Sure. I just got some weird sort of selfish validation by Eva’s post about her battle with this thing.
The BBG from the last half of the timeline is a shapeshifter and is possibly the entity itself or something that directly reports to it, it’s possible that this is the REAL “man in the suit.” He takes on many forms because he’s absorbed many things and entities over the years. If my hypothesis is correct, he can absorb entities and basically become them (though he doesn’t have to in order to get a physical affect or something, still trying to understand that part) to then use to his own ends. It’s definitely what DarkestKnight said in the original post–nothing is destroyed, but changed. Entities absorbed by the thing become part of the thing. Like a parasite. It would explain why on several different occasions
Sam can’t defeat
the black dragon because it keeps. coming. back.
Idk, it sounded good earlier. I’m still pondering the ideas that are running through my head, but I got this weird, energetic excitement at the possibility. Absolutely fascinating stuff. I could be making all this up out of some form of psychosis, but hey–maybe it’ll be a book and none of us will have to work ever again. Hold me to it if I ever actually make anything of myself, ok?