Okay new update, because i am not done.
First I must connect with Clauneck again. Which I did. But this time he was silent and had no messages to impart, which means what little I could see was vague and impressionlike.
It started in a wooded backroads area. Probably near here. I could see the post fence. Then that went away, then back again, and the number 21 briefly, but I think that came in recently.
He arrived and once again he was a cute, hairy sasquatch. Last time his hair was black. This time his hair was a medium to light brown.
Now remember he has already said his answer was yes. By that I mean I feel like the small amount I won isn’t all of it. (Not just cuz of wishful thinking.) The other images he supplied haven’t happened yet, after all. But I asked him anyway to please make it so - I had already spent a large amount of time thanking him in meditation earlier (for me). I stopped when something was like, oh please stop for the love of…
I’m not sure why but I held up my cupped hands and out flew a butterfly. I think it was blue? I could be wrong on that one. Then, I’m not sure why except I have a tendency to pet them when they come along, I started to comb his fur with my fingers. As I combed I realized his fur was in need of attention. He had a burr on his upper thigh.
He allowed me to do this, in fact even seemed to like it. (Personally I think having my hair brushed would be an awesome thank you as well so I was down with this.) It was like he hadn’t been groomed in years. Then I washed him in a sparkle of white cleansing energy from head to toe. Just washed him right now in one little swoop.
When I was done he stepped back and… sprouted delicate fancy fairy wings of the dragonfly variety??? With filigree and everything. Oh, it was so pretty. One of those things I WISH I could draw successfully.
But. Yeah I wasn’t expecting that.
Then I felt myself transform and I was, well, a fancy high fairy on my little lotus pad continuing to meditate and do the enn thang. He went away somehow but… came back. Except he was transformed when he came back. Man he was purty: a male fairy like creature with cape and circlet and antennae (I had them too) and kind of resembled Marvel’s Loki from the movie but actually elegant and streamlined.
I got double vision at that point, like I was watching from the side and also from my seat. He knelt at my feet and held out his hand. I forget what that gesture means: it’s an offer, right? They use it in romantic stories when a woman is being asked for her hand. So you know. I held out my hand. He took it.
And then we were standing near the fence again. I thought I was alone at first but then there he was at my left. And I asked him again if he was willing to make it so.
He still said not a word. I told him, look I already know you said yes because I remember. I’m just asking.
He held my left hand a moment then walked away. At one point I thought he might want a kiss or something through this but he refused - which I greatly appreciated. I really dislike it when I am expected to give out sexual favors. He wasn’t mean, he just kind of made it clear no really. We’re not going there. but I like you so I’m gonna hold your hand.
I remember his cloak was black and first but then it was almost black dark green. And it would flow when he moved. Very artistic is our silent fellow.
I came out of it with a feeling it was time to pull a second entity in. Just a feeling. (Edit: a very SLIGHT feeling.) I might. I dunno yet.