Okay so I was sleeping one night and I went from a light sleep into a half awake state.
Then I decided to leave my body, but I did not know why, all of a sudden this whisper calls me down stairs.
So I followed it being curious, I went down stairs and there was a basement but bare in mind I don’t actually have a basement in my house.
So I entered the basement then the door closes behind me, then all of a sudden my magick circle was there, the inverted pentagram was on fire.
I stood in the middle being pulled towards it, the circle then crumbles and drops beneath me, I was falling and falling for a long ass time.
I landed on a ancient ground, I could tell this place was hell, I looked around me and I couldn’t see anything then all of a sudden azazel popped out of no where and smiles.
I demanded to know why I have been brought here, I tried to even leave I felt very strange. I couldn’t leave at all.
He looks at me and says
" welcome to hell, you have been brought here to be punished and hurt ".
I was shocked the demon I have worked with so much brought me here to hurt me why ?.
I went through a torture, both mental and actual painful, seeing love ones taken from me in forms of visions, my loved ones dying, etc.
I was attached to chains, pulling my skin, dangling over a abyss, heat scorching me, chains digging into me, as if I was in a physical body.
I screamed in anger, pain and misery, I started even laughing telling the demon to keep trying, to push me further and to try harder.
This was a state of insanity I was in, which kicked in due to the trauma I was experiencing, I shouldn’t of asked for more, because that’s what he gave me.
More pain, past memories I hid from, mistakes I made, demonic beings taunting me, ripping my astral flesh, causing me agony.
Heat beneath me increasing, my energy was even being drained, no matter how much I pleaded or begged he didn’t stop.
He kept on I even began screaming at him,
" I demand you realise me of your grasp ".
The torture and taunting increased and so did the pain, never have I felt such spiritual pain.
Then I entered a state of drained of emotion, I even began getting used to the pain.
I was dropped on to the spiritual lake of fire, the pain began to increase again, then I rose and began to collapse on the old blood stained ground.
My will was broken, mind and body was also broken, I stumbled and used all I could to rise to my feet.
I wandered a dark labyrinth, falling down giving up, serpents began entering me, causing me more pain.
Giving me visions of my future, I was alone, no house, no money, no friends and all family dead, I was back on drugs and addicted once again.
I forced the serpents out of me, I was in front of a throne, where a huge statue of me, sat there it crumbled and azazel said
" your power is taken from you, you’re legions turn against you, you become a spec that we laugh at ".
I got angry, then I jumped back into the lake of fire, I allowed all I was to burn and gave in.
Then rose once again, I stormed to the throne room, and demanded azazel to show himself.
He appeared, I spoke as my most powerful self, I said.
" I am emperor here in my kingdom, I demand all to hear me, I am no longer who I was, I am reborn ".
I expanded my spiritual body across all of hell, attracting all demons and beings and forces to enter me.
Out of know where I said
" I am Lux ".
I then released a huge critical mass of light and power, it emanated out of me.
Then azazel looked at me and said
" you passed your punishment, and you’re test, now emperor take you’re throne ".
I sat upon my throne and stated all the mistakes I made and that I am going to fix it all.
I then woke up, then I realised it was all a test and I evoked azazel and he revealed to me this.
" that hell you entered is the hell of your psyche, you’re inner torture chamber, I made you confront all that keeps you from ascending, I gave you torture and visions that were false to strip you of you’re ego, now you have risen as the true devil and god to take back you’re throne ".
I laughed and said
" so hell is a place of self torture ".
Then a day later I watched my favourite TV series Lucifer, in this episode.
The character playing lucifer says
" You send you’re self to hell, you torture yourselves, you don’t even know the doors are unlocked and you can leave when ever you want ".
I was taken back and shocked what a synchronisity, crazy experience.
I had to share this with you all.