I have been reading on demons for years and I dabbled with some with self made incantations which worked well in the past . I was always “ attracted” to Lucifer and last year I got a reading from a friend and she saw that Lucifer will bring me a Tutor who would teach me the right way of things and he did ( I won’t say his name not only because promoting is not allowed - I think - but also because I haven’t asked for his permission to do so . Since I started officially working with Lucifer a lot of things have changed for me , I stopped being a dormant for people around me and I stop trying to please everyone around me . I set boundaries that if I don’t want to bend for someone then I won’t . My Clairvoyant abilities have also increased . I saw a couple of Qlipothic spirits popping up during the invocation a couple of times and Lucifer popped two times as well outside the invocation time period ( I saw him as a white - not caucasian but white - man with yellow curls ( not blonde ) and a toned slim body but when I talk to him via channelling I see him wearing a black cloak with his face and body hidden .Now I get messages from Spirits ( which i’m 60% sure are demons) easier and without invocation.Working with him is not easy but I try to stay focused even through it drains me a lot . I proceed and made a pact with him and with his guidance and help i’m sure i will have more positive changes in my life . I’m starting with this as my first entry to be a reminder when things in my path get rough
PS the messages from spirits are the following and I hope nobody gets offended : 1) I don’t remember which spirit or demon i had in mind but a female voice popped in my head and said “ Women have two strong powers : Magic and your vagina . Learn how to use them both well
Second message I got it tonight after researching information on Lilith ( still haven’t found what i am looking for ): Again i heard a female voice or more felt it and she said : Choose a mate , don’t get chosen by one .
I hope my english are making sense and I don’t think my entry is that interesting but it’s more a note to self
That’s is very draining and for some weeks i didn’t have the will to leave my house or drink water .Also before you decide to make a pact do research and find out if Karma will interfere with achieving your goals . I found the last part after I made my pact
After some bad incidents , I had my temple ruined by someone and I was in the hospital ,Im back at home but i have to do more health tests cause there’s a leak in the right side of my brain I have apologised to Lucifer and yesterday I saw another qlipothic familiar in my room . I hope Lucifer and all the demons I have petitioned to are not mad at me . I will give offerings when i have the chance
I worry about this all the time aswell, udually I discover though that its only me worrying and them not really being mad at me (unless I actually screw something up).
I hope you are right . The person who was teaching me , wants to cut ties with me so i don’t think it’s a good idea to speak to him about it and with my current situation I can’t practice magic or channel
Ehhh, I was somewhat put off by you mentioning a teacher in your first post but I figured I keep it to myself.
Sadly it seems to be more common than not that stuff like this happens.
Sometimes we learn harsh lessons like these…I can promise you that youre not the only one who trusted and got ripped off.
Anyway Ill stop polluting your journal now
Do NOT use the word ‘‘cant’’. Is a shitty word that damages your confidence and your strenght, and it basically leads to binding your mind and shutting your own doors.
This may, or may not be an opportunity, but don’t go wandering and guessing in the dark. Scan your surroundings for clues, talk to people. Move!
As you have been told, this might lead to an opportunity.
): Again i heard a female voice or more felt it and she said : Choose a mate , don’t get chosen by one .
I have apologised to Lucifer and yesterday I saw another qlipothic familiar in my room . I hope Lucifer and all the demons I have petitioned to are not mad at me . I will give offerings when i have the chance
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