Alright. Today I’ll discuss my take on step 1, give a report on my initial impressions, plus whatever else I ramble about. I don’t think I’ll update this journal every day like I tried to with my previous one.
Mental - Thought Control
Not much explanation needed. It takes me from just observing my thoughts to keeping a quiet mind for 10 minutes. I did observation of thoughts this morning. I really identify with my mental voice too much. That said, this morning when I started observing my thoughts they slowed down significantly. I didn’t expect this. Throughout the exercise I noticed that my thoughts build up a pressure that announces their arrival in a way. It’s totally weird. This was beneficial, I can see how I’ve neglected this It felt so good to get a break from the monkey inside.
Astral - Soul Mirrors
Three days ago I thought the soul mirrors were physical. I’ve come a long way. In essence, it’s just introspection, with me writing down everything good or bad about me. Everything positive is written in the white mirror of the soul, and everything negative in the black mirror.
Physical - routine and programming substances with desire
For this I just have to keep a beneficial routine, physical exercise would be good too. Also, I’m supposed to program stuff with intention.
Resistance, and other thoughts
My subconscious doesn’t seem to like change. I’m not sure if this is apophenia, but this morning some obstacles popped up that almost prevented me from getting started with the book. It was highly suspicious. It takes me all this effort to manifest stuff and then my subconscious just pulls some roadblocks out of its ass overnight. If so, I applaud it for its wasted effort. I am continuing undeterred.
Upon reading the book more closely, I can see why it’s important to do it as is and not skip steps. I could not have started this book five months ago, I wouldn’t be mature enough to do it in order.
Franz Bardon says his book was written for the “busiest man”. I don’t fit that description. I’m a senior in high school, and I spend only 2 hours a day in school because I took all the required classes early. I have lots of time. I’m putting IIH first, but I’ll likely be supplementing it with my own stuff.
I’ll continue my energy work. Also, for the last month I’ve worked with Bualu and Ublisi from the Angels of Omnipotence book. I’m moving on with just Bualu because I got Jareth Tempest’s attunement for him, and I need willpower and self control more than anything else. I still haven’t activated my attunement to Metatron from Jareth Tempest, so I should do that soon, since Metatron seems like he would be good for this.
I’m thinking of making a custom subliminal for some of the steps, specifically the mental aspects of step 2 and 3. I had great success with the Concordia Booster, but I’m currently taking a break from listening to subliminals.
My spring break starts next week so I may update after that.
As a random thought, I skimmed the Key to the True Kabbalah by Franz Bardon. I wonder if Enochian could be used like that? Is there a way to unlock the full power of it? I guess I’ll find out one day. I close with this quote which is especially pertinent to me now.
“Yesterday is history, Tomorrow is a mystery, but today is a gift. That is why it is called the present.”