So I don’t know who to thank but I’ll sure be thanking both Lucifer and Bune sometime soon with gifts! I was feeling hopeless like my life was never going to turn around. So I gathered up some hemlock and started making a poison with no cure. I had planned to kill myself at the start of the year if nothing changed before the first.
And then I met an older man who wanted to pay off my cards. He already paid off the smallest one to prove to me that he was trustworthy. And is about to take care of the biggest one. And unlike all other people who claimed they could help me, rather than wanting anything sexual from me he just wants me to give him company over kik and take care of myself.
I told him about my domestic abuse issues and he even is trying to hurry with paying everything down so that I can leave and have my own place so that I dont have to be in a bad relationship or with my abusive parents.
It feels so hard to believe. That I finally found someone who wants to take care of me. I’ve always had to take care of myself and everyone else. It makes me feel like I really must be a goddess. Once my stress is washed away with the ending of my debt I will be able to return to working with Lucifer in a stress free environment.
It makes me want to cry. There’s actually good people out there. I lost so much faith in humanity. And was just wishing for the world to blow up. 
