Hello everyone, I’ve been lurking on this website for a couple of weeks now and finally thought I’d join.
My interest in magick and occult goes way back, many years, but I don’t (can’t) practice it. I never could get things like meditation or astral projection quite right, because of my untreated ADHD my mind keeps wandering and prevents me from the focus and concentration needed to achieve it.
I first became interested in the occult as a kid, I used to watch a cartoon called Teen Titans, one of the charatcers Raven is an occultist and a half-demon and does meditation and stuff. Even though I already knew that cartoons aren’t real, it still inspired me to try meditiation in the hopes I could get powers Then a few years later in middle school and highschool there were things I really wanted so I got into Law of Attraction (it was really popular here, I don’t know why) and through that I developed my interest in sigil magick, real-wishes, manifestation, and so on.
None of it really worked, I never could relax my mind enough to achieve sigil working or to get to the “paralysis” stage of astral projection and manifestation. Even when using methods in Gordon Winterfield books for evocation or the Liber Null for manifestation, because I have ADHD. So I stopped trying for a while but now the occult calls me and I think I will try to learn again now that I am in my 20s.