Start of with E A 's books. Questing after visions, is a good one. Try these videos as well,- YouTube , - YouTube hopes this helps
Sorry but I can only see this as awakening. You know now that one God is dead. That’s usually when people start looking for another God. Until one day, they realize that even that one is dead as well. They move to another… and finally they understand that all Gods are dead. Not only one. They become atheists and forget about those useless Gods. But if instead of that you turn to occultism or spirituality, you’ll find a much better path.
In occultism or magick you’ll understand that you are the only “living God” who gives life to all those dead Gods, if you wish. And kill them back if you desire. That’s the path of power and knowledge. Going back to those dead Gods and be their God.
To be able to do that, you need to study magick and occultism. To know yourself and the powers that control existence and how you can use them to your advantage instead of begging the sky or incense smoke for mercy.
“The Kybalion” would be good start for that. Then learn working with spirits and deities. Spellcasting, evocation, divination and astral projection. Those are the skills I would recommend you focus on in your journey. More than enough to clean-up all religious poison from your system.
Whatever you do, do not replace one God with another. Doesn’t matter what excuses you would hear, or you would only replace one fatal disease with another. You can call whatever you want a God or Gods, doesn’t matter. What matters is what’s in your mind and what’s in your heart when you’re dealing with those forces of nature. Learn from your mistake, don’t repeat it.
Good luck,
Start with any from goetia they are very easy to call and come very quickly
I’ll definitely have to.
We’ll put!!!
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I think that what we have read and what we have been raises with is created by people and very far from our creator. I had many conversations with a very religious friend of mine. He is submissive and says that puts everything in God’s hands. When I ask him straight questions he doesn’t know what to answer me and finally told me he doesn’t want to discuss this topic with me. I asked him why there are so many Christian saints who were warriors, since we have to turn the other cheek; in what way the monks living in monasteries help the society with their asket life; whats wrong with sex, abundance and pleasure; is he ready as a good christian to donate his business to the poor and go to monastery; why in so many perfect christian families husbands got mistresses whom they love but continue to live with their wives forever. He never had an answer for me, except that was the correct way… Correct for who?
So I dont think that God has given up on anyone. I just think that our creator has nothing to do with the description given to him by the followers of correctness.
I have a similar story, but mine came with a painful chronic illness. I too realized that the god we are taught to worship is really not what they tell us. There is way the fuck up more out there than they tell us.
My personal recommendation would be to start with these books (they should be readily available at you favorite online bookstore):
-The Kybalion by Three Initiates (aka William Walker Atkinson)
-Mind Power-The Secret of Mental Magic by William Walker Atkinson
-Initiation into Hermetics by Franz Bardon. These book is a true gem. It will give you a solid foundation into Magick, if you further want to pursuit it. It’s not easy, it’s just about you and your mind only (no props, no rituals, no ceremonies,…)
May you start walking A New, Fulfilling and Fruitful Path from now until eternity…
Best,
Ch
Yes you can
I’ve had very similar feelings recently.
It’s because many people were taught to think of God as this personified force with qualities that you cant attribute to energy.
To me it’s a force that’s indifferent to the left/right, all that matters is you’re making an effort to ascend
p.s belial is amazing to work with but the daemons wont help you if you dont help yourself first. It’s really crazy because if you put in the work, the results you see are unvelievable. I think its one of those things where no one would believe it until they do it
I’m sure uve received suggestions already, but I’d say Lucifer. He’s rather easy to work with from my experience. In my experience, he directed me to who would help/teach me how to do whatever I thought about. If u haven’t worked with him yet, u should give it a try.
Is the sun still shining at night or where is the sun during a storm?
There’s a lot of fatal disease out their brother but there’s a Great Physician that many don’t know or understand. Awakening & curing of blindness is something we all need.
Sounds like the 5 of pentacles
When I used to work with YHWH, I always assumed he helped me and he heard me. But other than that I stopped working because it gave me more stress/anxiety and idk if that’s him or not, I don’t get it with the other spirits I’m working with right now
Why was the Counselor singing Psalm 22 on the cross?
Funny, but this is what I really needed. I did mental magic for the longest while, then suddenly, kinda felt like my ability was stolen from me. Will sure be looking for these reads