I have been working with a few spirits for a while, but never actually tried to evoke any before. Calling one into our world, was something I had been working up to. I had had another in mind first, but as I think I explained once elsewhere on the forum, constantly seeing signs had led me to decide the first one would be King Paimon instead.
Firstly I must admit that I had actually put it off and delaying this working. For the past few nights something else always seemed to catch my attention. Deciding to get to the grocery store before it closed, thinking maybe I should organize some book shelves, figured I wanted to go and grab coffee and take a walk since the weather was nice. Finally though enough was enough. No more making excuses not to move forward.
I decided to use the black mirror I had recently finished making, but placed my censor in the triangle near it, to burn incense as an offering to the spirit. I decided that would work best since while a little smoke is fine, too much, enough needed to use it directly for evocation, might set off the smoke alarms. I never actually saw anything at all in the mirror though. I wasn’t actually counting on that anyway since I am new at this. But still it made sense to have one in front of me anyways, because you never know.
It ended up being a completely telepathic and energetic experience, but strangely it was obliviously that something really did happen anyway. I could hear the spirit’s telepathic voice in my head, and it clearly sounded quite different from my own thoughts. I could sense the power and will of this demon not long after I began my call for him to come. It was quickly very apparent that he was determined be the once in change, and not me. I have always understood that we need to keep control of the spirits, especially when working with demons in particular. I knew at once though that I had no chance of being able to reign this one in, to give a command and hope he would do anything but laugh and call me pathetic. I realize though at the same time that I was not really SUPPOSED to try. The idea was not to command, but to work in partnership. Fearing my own inability seemed silly.
Very early on I received a very strong impression of a command. “Don’t move. Let me look you over.” It was quite clear that he simply wanted to consider for a moment whether I was worth bothering with. Whether I could learn enough, try hard enough and do enough of the work, to be worth his time.
“WEAK, HELPLESS,” he said after not long, mostly shouting quite loudly at me. “Or so you want to seem, want to look, to feel, because those things are easy compared to finding your own sense of power.” I could not answer in my defense. I had nothing to offer in response. He went on “only when everything has completely falling to pieces can it begin to be rebuilt.” I knew that I had been accepted. That he would teach me to get somewhere, to be someone with a sense of my own power and worth, and success.
“You may issue a task” he said to me next. “And then you must end the ritual.” Okay so it seemed it was the demon dismissing me. I remained open minded, even if it does seem backwards. I politely and respectfully issued a task and stated the importance of it. I knew that he already knew anyway. I was only following formality. “I shall do what I can do.” I heard, again telepathically, and then I ended the ritual by simply started that it was ended, and blowing out the candles.
Nothing went as I thought it would, as I imagined it might, but than I can’t exactly say what it was I had thought. I was left though with a feeling that I had done enough of it right to have been successful. Just wanted to share in case anyone like to read this kind of post.
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