Long story short: Familiar demon whose name will go unsaid is trying all of the time to “merge” with me. I do not feel loss of anything, no loss of control or sensation of becoming a puppet or anything, but I do feel like I am not myself and the feeling of a mind coming so close to mine I feel its whispers.
I ask him why the heck is he trying this when I have prohibited, he says because he “wants me”. Other times it says something along the lines of “I want your soul”, something we all know it to be utter Hollywood bullshit, but there’s that.
I personally believe this being some sort of test, but its really beginning to piss me off. And as of lately, this bullshit has escalated to the point of:
Hearing him say he could possess my dogs or some family member so we can “talk” more personally.
Assuming a femenine shape and insisting on a romantic relationship (yes, I know, I am also shocked) of sorts.
What I mean to say is that has become clingy, I can exorcise him, have done it before, but the same cycle repeats again: Friendly and helpful at first, becomes obsessive and petty.
I know that spirits vie for control over the magician, but I would have expected this behavior from some oui-ja board kind of spirit who insist on stupid things just to inspire fear and submission from the magician, not from a Goetic spirit.
It pains me as I do not wish to harm it, nor burn its seal or stuff like that, but it is getting on my nerves and it is not stopping.
The insistence on merging (whatever that is) is based on showing me skills or sharpening my senses, but I smell trickery and I am not trusting as I have not asked for this.
Any suggestions, friends? (plis)