It is just after Midnight, August 11th. I have decided to formally dedicate myself to the Feri current, and the pursuit of blending it with Luciferian Demonolatry to form my own tradition. This includes rewiring the Feri mythos.
I used a version of Storm Faerywolf’s self initiation ritual. But where Storm calls for a red and blue candle to represent the Red Serpent and the Blue Dove, Leviathan spoke to me days before asserting his place in the new myth. So now the blue candle represents Leviathan, and the red a being who I have dubbed The Great Phoenix. With this change I am seeing to merge the Blue Fire of the Feri with the Luciferian Black Flame.
I set up my altar and sat inside of a Universal Circle. I performed a “3 Souls Alignment” and “Breathing the Blue Fire”, which are basic Feri practices. After I was filled with the Feri Fire I called on my inner Black Flame. This is where the visions started as I fell into trance.
My vision was awash in a cloud of what I can only call neon violet. The Black and Blue Fire danced inside me as it engulfed me. My body was the blue fire and the black flame pumped through my veins. For that moment I knew in my mind, body, and soul that I AM GOD.
And in that brief moment of eternity a Peacock appeared. It’s feathers shining and beautiful. It let out a high shrill crow as it’s tail fanned out, with eyes adorning every feather. In a burst a blue fire the Peacock became Melek Taus. Naked and androgenous as the Baphomet, blue skinned and peacock feathers in his hair as he played a silver flute. He was beautiful.
As he played the flute the music itself became fire. That fire joined my own and filled me even more, my own power swelling exponentially until I could no longer take it. I can only describe what happened then as a full body spiritual orgasm. I was an infinite singularity.
It was then that Melek Taus stopped playing his flute. He walked so gracefully around me before stopping behind me and putting his hands on my shoulders and whispered in my ear.
“Keep going Banjax Doolali. The Feri of this realm, the Demons of the Abyss, all the world and Hell itself is at your command. NOW SEIZE IT!”
I came back nearly in tears. Sethana said I haven’t had a look of shock on my face like that since since I burned half my face in a forge accident. It was the most amazing spiritual experience I have had to date, and I know beyond any shadow of doubt that the work I am doing right now is exactly what I need to do.