Don’t worry; I would never actually kill myself. I don’t think it’s even possible for me to do so.
Often, I wish I was just dead. I didn’t feel like this when I had friends. I was happy, but my life was ruined by psychic attacks. I’ve rebuilt my life, but sometimes even when happy and content I still feel like I want to die. I think that if I had friends, I wouldn’t feel this way, but for some reason I don’t want friends.
Earlier today, I was thinking that I would kill the person who did this to me if I knew who it was. They’ve defrauded the social security administration via me being on disability benefits because they cause me to hear fake voices. They also defrauded people from food, like food drives, because I would be able to work if I didn’t have to hear fake voices. I was a straight A college student before being psychically attacked.
Anyway, I wouldn’t actually harm whoever did this to me, because I may have been worse off if it never happened. Also, I learned that the occult is real. Sometimes, I really hate the occult for having caused such terrible things in my life. I used to go to church for protection and would hear a voice saying “FUCK THE FUCKING OCCULT”.