Here we go…
Him and I have had a battle relationship. he would show up, scurry things about and then run off. Its been quite complex. I didnt know who it was until about 1 year ago when someone kicked my comfort zone and actually his energy just really really made things cray crazy for a bit. I mean I had ideas every now and again.
For the last 10 or so Years I have been deathly ill. I suffered from Fibromyalgia, PTSD, major depressive disorder and the list goes on and on. I have been on pain meds most of this span. They built me up so much on prescriptions they made me ill. For me, Lucifers been the one to scoop me up from a fall. Lilith says Get the fuck up.
I was not only cracked I was broken and at that point full of poison. I was dying from the inside out. I could feel myself rotting and dying off. The more I made noise with this the more pills they would shove down my throat. Someone asked me to invoke him and I was like why? all I gotta do is need and really all I have to do is look around and hell pop up.
I use music to heal and it has to be a voice that goes thru me. Much like what Sully Erna’s Vocals does. I cant stand High pitched things, it actually drives me crazy.