everything’s fucked up.
so, i’ve got a cold now, but that had been coming on for days. today (about… what, three? four days after the ritual?), i missed my flight, got hella nauseated on the way to the airport, had to pay a parking fine, just received a tollway violation, a reminder that i’m not enrolled to vote, possibly another fine for something i may have allegedly done cough and, worst of all, last night i bought some skype credit, clicked through all the prompts and whatever, then realised i still had my ex fiancee’s credit card details as the default payment method. fuuuuuuuck… so i sent her an email explaining how it was a mistake etc (only for $16 anyhow) but i don’t think she’s going to be happy. in fact i suspect she’ll likely report me for credit card fraud or something…
now, just so you know where i’m coming from… getting bullshit fines pisses me off because i like to think i’m reasonably intelligent and if i can get fined for doing something i didn’t even know i wasn’t supposed to do (except maybe that one thing above cough), then the system is broken and information about what shouldn’t be done, shouldn’t be so goddamned hard to find that a reasonably intelligent person like me could look for it and still not find or not understand it. like putting a speed limit sign behind a goddamned tree or something.
but, that’s not the issue. sigh what a fucking day.
soooo i’m thinking this has something to do with my ritual the other night. seriously, i’ve never had, let alone paid this many fines in one sitting. it’s fucking ridiculous.
has anyone else experienced this? i mean, is this a magical fuckup on my part, or just part of the process? i understand that by playing with magic, we exert an influence on a huge number of events in many ways and in many places, but why is it that things sometimes turn to shit? EA has noted that targets of baneful magic often experience great prosperity (to whatever degree) before their ultimate ruination, but is the opposite true of those performing the ritual?
is it like an astral shockwave that takes all our “good luck” along with the energy of a curse? now, i know that it’s simply due to the fact that i’m not experienced enough to be able to avoid these sorts of things, but this was the quickest and most spectacular example i can recall, so it’s a little out of my comfort zone.
basically, i just want to know if this is normal (using the term very generously), and is this actually a sign of success? all the best things in life hurt like hell to attain, so is this just the price i have to pay to get what i want? alternatively, is it sympathetic resonance due to the nature of the working, being attracted to me? or is it all just a huge coincidence and none of it is related at all? of course i know better than to believe in coincidence but for the sake of my own sanity i need to pose the question every now and then.
any thoughts would be appreciated.
kind regards, james.