I don’t normally spout off about my workings, but I was asked by Mehmi’on to relate a discussion regarding what I think I’ll call ‘natural bindings’ that Mehmi’on helped me with. (Let me know if there’s a name for these.)
This was performed in my druid grove in the astral which has a fire pit.
So, he said that humans have the ability to automatically place bindings on others by wishing them to be silent, to do what they want, to think how they want. Depending on the strength or desire, natural ability and length if time the wish is felt the bindings can build, overlap and become very limiting, because they make it seem that you are limiting yourself - they become a part of you, and very difficult to recognise as not from you. So they’re very insidious, can be related to learning, internalised beliefs and psychological training.
The important thing he wanted to get across, is that bindings can occur and reoccur at any time, almost every day depending on who you interact with. As we are all energetic beings, they’re very easy for regular non-magically educated humans to create without even knowing it. Some people add extra, thin bindings, some can reinforce existing ones they added before.
He said these kinds of bindings aren’t necessarily ‘bad’, that it’s part of how communities work to an extent, that tribes, families, groups generally bind each other into the culture of the group, and in this sense it’s normal and healthy. The trouble is when individual needs are different or outlive the usefulness for the binding, there is imbalance or overuse for control purposes by domineering people.
What makes training by bindings different from training you choose that also changes your thinking and behaviour, is that training becomes you and shapes you, where the bindings remains like bandaging or scaffolding that forces you into a shape and holds you there. You never really assimilate it as part of yourself.
There were three types as the bindings appeared to my Sight:
- Bandaging - the most common, in various states of decay, seemed to be associated the most with basic will imposed by other people subconsciously. Exactly as if they saw my personal independence as a wound to them that they wanted to bind tightly to stop it bleeding.
- Wire - Plastic coated and embedded deep under the skin along meridians, up and down either side of my spine, the backs of my legs, and around my mouth and head. Designed to control movement, behaviour and desire.
- Leather straps and coverings - Thick, stiff straps like saddle leather for immobilisation and stopping action. An immobilising strap was fixed with poppers (removable?) over my entire spine and under the back of my head, meant to keep me inactive, quiet, still. (Also a leather cap and shoes, probably meant to block crown and kidney 1 points. Not the right material to do that so this wasn’t working.)
First he removed what looked like old tatty bandaging wound round and round my middle. This had something to do with imposed bad attitudes to food and were societal beliefs I’d already dismissed, or so I thought, but I’m hoping my addiction to roundup-soaked wheat is affected.
There was very tight bandaging around my heart. My heart was recently healed with the help of Azazel, filling huge holes in it and eventually replacing it, and now as the bandaging came off, it looked like unwrapping an actual organ, that bulged out as soon as a tiny gap was available, and was actually several times larger than the tiny space it had been confined into. I’m a tad worried about the effect that could have on my feelings in the future, we’ll have to see. This came from a jealous failed affair over 20 years ago.
I had a pair of wires running under the skin from my scapula down either side of my spine and down my legs, he pulled them out. I forgot whet there were, something to do with electrical control. These were by the ex who learned energy working with me. There was a ring of wire embedded around my mouth.
The leather strapping was like a brace attached to the underside of my skull going down my back. It seemed to be attached with poppers and was easily removed. This was from my mother, it seemed she wanted a compliant child but had intended this to be for her use only, he had reinforced this brace so often it had become thick and hard. It had the effect of disabling self defense. I told her what I thought of her a long time ago and have no contact with her now, so this one wasn’t working that well either.
All of these and a few other similar smaller bits went onto the fire. The flames flashed pretty colours as the wires melted and vaporised. It’s interesting how much I learned to act anything while wearing all this crap, and I’m curious to see what if anything changes in me in the coming days and weeks.
Based on Mehmi’on’s description of what these bindings were caused by family and lovers, I would assume that I had others - like, a lot of other cultural and group bindings that I presumably signed up for, but for some reasons only the unwanted, unhelpful and damaging ones showed up in my sight as he showed them to me. I’ve scanned for bindings before and thought I had none! So I asked him how he identified these, and he said there was just a skill to it I didn’t have. Maybe it matters that I was looking for deliberate, malicious links and none of these were consciously done as well? Not sure.
Finally, Mehmi’on believes scanning for bindings in yourself and people you care about would be a helpful part of psychic hygiene practices and self defense, it’s a part of ‘inner work’, and he’s very happy to be called on to assist and teach this skill.
Thoughts, comments appreciated. It’s a relatively new topic for me so please fill in anything I missed if you have time.