I think that I have finally found the key to making my first baby steps in successful magick: Meditation. Some of you are now saying, “For fuck’s sake. Isn’t that what we have been telling you all along??” Well…yes you have. But easier said than done for me. I have always had great difficult quieting my mind. But I think staring at a candle in the dark will be key for me. I was able to enter, what I consider to be, a relatively deep state of meditation last night. Then I began to call Bune for insight on how I might win the affection of two specific girls. I also asked him how I could begin to see financial success. I asked him for assistance and for him to let me know what he required if I choose to take his help. I got one clear response for each girl. I did not get anything helpful regarding finances. So I’m pretty stoked about what I consider to be contact (even it was only a placebo affect to get me to think more clearly in my own brain).
Anyhow, I woke up to a very unpleasant presence in my room. I noticed it after waking up from a nightmare. I did not feel like it wanted to physically harm me as much as terrorize me. The nightmares continued. I live in a fairly rural area in the desert. And I heard what sounded like at least 4 small dogs screaming for their lives (the neighbors dogs I think being killed by coyotes. I know that Bune is not typically know as being unpleasant. But this is the second such episode after trying to contact him. The last time was when I was backpacking and had an out of body experience, followed by a large bat/human thing. Maybe it is just that Bune doesn’t like me for some reason? Or maybe this is nothing and it is just in my head?