On Monday, I had conjured Lilith, after my Pater told me about Lilith and her unfortunate history. With Adam being frightened by her creation, and totally rejecting her. I didn’t feel asking much of her, but I wanted to let her know I know what it’s like to be rejected. It’s happened to me, plenty of times, and that made me pissed off, and I couldn’t understand what was wrong, why didn’t they want me. So, my own tragic background made me want to do a simple gesture, I wanted to give her a hug, and show her I understood her pain.
This is what I did: I did my O.A.O gnosis and called her by her Enn, and felt her presence, and I smiled (nervously), and said “Thank you for coming” and told her I merely wanted to let her know, that I knew her pain too well, basically telling her my backstory, and offered a hug to show I loved her, like a son to his mother, and she was more deserving to be my mother, than my real mother. I hugged her, though I didn’t know if she was hugging back or was like “Oookay?” I hope she knew I wanted to show her love and tenderness.
I did ask her a few requests: like enhance my artistic skills and to help me on my journey when I need it. The major goal was to hug and show her love, I thought of summoning Samael, but I’m having a hard time finding his sigil and Enn, or better ways of evoking Lilith’s husband. Anyway, I just wanted to share this to everyone, and also ask what did they think? Well, more importantly, do you think Lilith knows I was sincere?