i stalled out after doing some deep introspection and writing down many things i want to change using this ritual. for some reason, this next step made me stop cold turkey for a week.
the next things i need to do are:
: do a candle ritual with erik koetting’s rite of transformation, a sigil of baphomet, and about 12 pages of things i don’t like about myself that i want to change. i’m glad i read this msg by you, i really need to get it going.
: then i have to spend about three weeks going into and out of deep trances in order to train myself for the transformation of consciousness. i planned to do this with my autogenic training protocol as well as using an autogenic command with a spirit enn to conjure a force to me. however, the block of doing the transformation rite combined with the reality that i will be drowsy with trance from doing the toc work for a month straight is making me hesitate. it’s going to take a LOT out of me to do this work and frankly, will leave me vulnerable to spiritual attacks and negative influence. i don’t look forward to that at all, but what can ya do?