So, long story short, Ive been unemployed for more time than I care to admit, and had already gone through the Welcome and shit for a job I was supposed to start today. I am a medicinal cannabis patient here where I live, and have been since 2018, and was waiting on the results of a dope test from friday, where I took my ID and all my credentials. I was confident that I’d be working today, so I got a few cigarettes and a beer for the golden Santa Muerte as thanks, and yesterday (Sunday) at noon, I went and did something desperate and uncharacteristic of me: I performed the LBRP in my living room followed by “To Win A Job” ritual from GOM’s Job Seeker.
It’s as if I performed a whole spell to NOT get a job, because my hiring process was cancelled, and it being Sunday (when no one works), I got an email at 9pm last night saying that despite my efforts, I simply will not be working for them but thanks for choosing their company.
This accelerated my anxiety too much… I’d rather not say what happened after.
I’m trying to calm down enough to where I can drive to unemployment office, but… I am curious (because I dont think I have the belief or faith in magic for much else anymore) if there were something that were more effective? Something that actually got you the job?
I know this is personal, but… I just find it so weird that after working five years for a prestigious company before pandemic obligated it to close, I’m not good enough for these fuck-ass companies where my only fucking duty would be answering the phone.
If I would’ve known, I would’ve saved the money for cigarettes and beer to thank Santa Muerte (which I had to pawn one of my last valuables for, just to eat) and used it for gas.
I’m not Catholic anyway, so I guess serves me right.