Hi guys and girls. As a disclaimer, ive already done some searching, but i wanna get more suggestions. I deal with a lot of anxiety. This is going to sound weird, but its constant anxiety about death. Not of my own, but of people i love. This is something i think about every day. I dont see death as simply “the end” but a transition. But what im always scared of is death coming abruptly. You know, like how you can be the healthiest and happiest person yet a freak accident could happen or something and you die. Also today something really fueled that anxiety more, which was witnessing my dad’s van roll backwards down a steep hill swiftly and almost going over him. He tried to stop it but couldnt and at the last moment he got dragged down with it till it stopped by hitting a tree. The last part i couldnt see and i seriously thought he was dead, and i ran over there and he was laid out beside a tire. He’s okay, just some scrapes and stuff. But even that situation gives me a lot of guilt because i think about how recently i havent been able to spend that much time with him, and easily that moment i could have lost him from this world. I get tears in my eyes thinking back to it all. It was really traumatic.
Just that experience alone i know spiked up anxiety even more in me. I know magic cant solve EVERYTHING, and that this is a type of thing i have to work on in a mental level, but is there any magic i can do to assist with this? Any suggestions?
And thank you