I am going to forget ones I do not need go remember. I will remember them later but people and an animal gets in the way of my magical practices.
Amaranth in a poppet that represents your link to these, which you bury. Search feature for details.
Leraje for mental strength.
There’s also a Greek Titan Goddess of memories you could look into trying to evoke/work with.
Maybe you need to learn how to overcome these memories before you go on with your practices. Our past, regardless of how much pain and trauma, is often the best teacher and mentor we can have in life.
This is just a suggestion, as I too often see people embrace escapism rather than face what potentially makes them stronger, especially in the arcane circles.