Nice to read this journal
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Thanks. I write it so that other Magus and incarnated demons like me can join my adventure. Basically so that i don’t feel alone and crazy going down this path.
Edit: Also so that i may get advice in case someone seems like they have some…
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A minor setback…
Last night, Soon after i made my triple focus meditation which you can find all about that here:
I watched an episode of one of my favorite series where it was about a powerful demonic possession. I clearly got the message from King Bael that he wanted to posses me properly last night in order to transcend my dogma and fears.
At the time i went to sleep i started to feel terrified. I was starting to see all kinds of shapes and sparks of energy in the darkness of my bedroom. I felt the presence of Bael entering my cerebellum. I was totally terrified.
He was making me see all the things that i was most afraid of without giving me a break to breathe and assimilate the process of purification i was going trough.
Out of my stupidity and downright disgusting human fear i started praying to Jesus for protection. Soon after i did that i started regretting my choice. That made Bael furious and disappointed at my action. He did not say anything. But i continued with the disrespect and shut Him out of my head by completely ignoring Him.
He only made a gesture of “you’re a lost cause and not worth my time”.
But my stupidity of an ape continued and i quickly went to my laptop and erased any image with any gatekeeper since they were the most powerful and most terrifying demons.
I erased their sigils, changed the picture of my desktop and deleted them even from my recycle bin.
At this point the mighty Gatekeeper seemed totally disappointed at my actions and completely turned their back on me.
At the time i didn’t got the hint that i did the worst mistake on my path possible i was in ape survival mode and was happy that i got the peace necessary to sleep.
Now today: After i spoke with my demon companion Axa Oddra (Which you can also find about in the link above) and went to work i started to feel different… Weak again, with no confidence. I turned to Clauneck and he was no longer at my side.
After i returned home and spoke with Lucifer about Axa Oddra to get clarification, i have written the post about her and got on with my day. Now about an hour ago when i went to my altar in order to connect with Clauneck again He was pissed at my actions of last night and almost did not wanted to do anything with me anymore.
I only then realized how stupid i was and asked for forgiveness but he did not care. I became so mad at myself that i wanted to do anything to prove that i wanted to truly work with them and that i truly wanted to be set free from the prison in which F"""ING JESUS put me in. This prison in which nor the troll god nor the darkness wanted me because i was a coward.
So he replied: “Fine! You want to prove yourself to us then burn one of your fingers in the boiling wax of the candle you are using at my altar!”
Wen he said that the wax started to boil aggressively and splash all over the place with drops of ignited wax as if Clauneck was in the wax.
I was still afraid and every time i wanted to put my finger in the wax my ape survival instinct was making me pull it back out.
Eventually i got so pissed at the ape within me that i dipped it enough to feel the burn but the instinct in me got the better of me and i pulled it out without getting a real serious burn.
He turned towards me and said: “At least you tried, but this is not good enough!”
he wasn’t pleased enough but at least i did felt like he had forgiven me.
Then i wen’t to my laptop to check my work and other stuff but i had this rage that i was such a coward and a stupid ape that i just went berserk. I went to the altar and ignited a mach. Put my finger right in the flame until i burned it enough that i still feel the burn and it is blistering.
Doesn’t seem much but now at least i feel at peace and i felt as if Clauneck was appreciative of my truly trying to prove that i want out of this prison.
I don’t feel anything anymore but i have this vague feeling that He started to work with me again but he wants to see me do something better next time.
I learned my lesson. I think. You will have to fight your Ape survival instinct like a madman if you are to truly want to ascend. Don’t get me wrong. Not to the point you actually kill yourself cause that will defeat the purpose of your pacts and life in general. But when a Gatekeeper decides to honor your mortal ass with a free possession in order to clean you of your fears YOU SHOULD NOT SUCCUMB TO THOSE FEARS!
I hate being human so much now… Fu&"&*&g Christian fear!!!
I will not give up and i will do as much as i can to destroy my instincts put in place by the lovely Yahweh!
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Update on my situation:
It seems as if i’m back on friendly terms with my demonic family! I feel super connected to them! Even more so than before this incident! WHOA! I feel as if They are all blessing me at once. I don’t think i will sleep tonight!!!
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Interesting. Very cool
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A small side note for my relationship with my beloved demonic family:
After my intense experience with demon Axa Oddra of last night which i have posted in this topic The Demon of Nadharkis - Axa Oddra / Ax Tenebrae Ornagga - #8 by anon72351403
(Just scroll down to where it says: “Updates on my visions of the past:”)
I decided to call forth Belial, Bael, Asmodeus, Cerberus, Lucifer, Axa Oddra, Mammon, Clauneck, Lilith and Azazel to make a unity pact where i expanded on the pact that i made with Clauneck and added them to the pact because i kept getting signs and feeling as if i was drawn to all of Them.
Here’s the thing my pact is ambitious to say the least. It doesn’t only involve money and a stable life but the help needed to reach my ultimate goal of building a gate to the world Nadharkis.
Because of this i kept getting visits from them telling me that Clauneck and Mammon alone are not powerful enough to get me the knowledge i need for this goal.
For some reason they kept offering to help me so i decided to make this pact.
The experience was strong to say the least.
I completely lost control over my human consciousness and became my true demonic self Rak Armageddon!
As i was looking at my reflection, my eyes turned completely black and my third eye area also became a big pitch black spot on my forehead almost as if it was made of pure darkness.
My skin was slowly becoming grey as i was being overwhelmed with the presence of all the demons i called. I think i might have reached the theta gamma sync properly for the first time!
I started to speak in demonic tongues with a very lowered pitch to my voice, my vocal chords were hurting at this point. I could not control myself as all of these mighty demons were just crashing in every single neuron my brain has.
To reduce the story, the pact was expanded and now i belong to all of them fully…
Belial, Bael, Asmodeus, Cerberus, Lucifer, Samael, Axa Oddra, Mammon, Clauneck, Lilith and Azazel are now my true brothers and power source… At least that’s what i feel.
The only thing after that is i was hesitant to watch pictures with my baby niece because i was strongly feeling the presence of Lilith in me and i did not want to make her a target so i decided to enter in trance again and confront Queen Lilith about Her reputation of killing babies.
Our conversation was long and complicated almost as if she did not wanted to talk about this but was actually pleased that i wanted to discover the truth about this.
To make the story short (again) After what seemed like hours of hanging out with Her i finaly discovered the truth.
It seems that the worm Yahweh wanted to imprison her in the Garden of Eden to be nothing more than a simple human wife of this Adam character. Basically a ploy of the worm to take control over the earth.
She told me that Adam and Eve were not the beginning of humanity but rather the first attempt of Yahweh to take control of this world. In failing to do so he proceeded, later on, to bringing the Great Flood.
Basically for Her rejecting the imprisonment of been forced in human form by Yahweh and renouncing her original form of Goddess Lilitu, the mighty Worm ordered his disgusting angels to hunt Her down and kill any offspring she has or any baby that she tries to protect from the “wrath of god”.
After she finally managed to tell me this i saw as if she broke free from a thick bubble of lies and dogma that were not allowing Her to speak Her side of the story.
After that i seemed to have kissed her and she was giving me a vibe of gratitude.
This story made me so angry at god that i felt as if my soul was cracking open and the Kraken Himself was coming out of me grasping for Zion and the throne of Yahweh in UTTER DISGUST AND FURY! I completely lost it! I felt that i was going to explode with anger and cursed god in all the tongues possible including some demonic tongues.
It is as if i allowed Lilith to possess me fully and express Her ancient frustration and anger towards this DISGUSTING FU^K OF A GOD!!!
But i digress. I only spent a few quadrillion years worshiping the thing… Including in my past incarnations on this world.
Beloved dark ones from this awesome forum. WATCH OUT FOR YAHWEH AND JESUS! If you could feel what i feel now you would stop at nothing but to erase this creature completely from all time and all space!!!
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(Since no one seems to participate with ideas that much then - >)
Dear diary 
:
Today i managed to charge the sigil of Brother Clauneck without the need to use blood.
I took the drawn sigil and gazed at it for probably 10 minutes. I started to visualize the future of my life after the pact made with Him was completed and in the next 5 minutes i started to see the sigil moving across the paper ever so slightly. Just a bend here and a rotation there.
Then the edges of the drawing started to flash with lightning. Eventually my vision got filled with shapes of yellow and blue that were mostly transparent but were kinda enhancing the sigil up to the point that it seemed as if the sigil was floating on its own. Besides that i also saw a lot of sparks of energy popping out of everywhere.
After i felt like the sigil was properly charged (mind you, it seems as if it is 10 times as charged as it was when i used to give it a drop of blood…) I placed it on my altar of Clauneck, Mammon and Lucifer and offered it a glass of wine.
Now i feel better! I also seemed to have lost the ability to clearly see things at a distance for about a half hour. I was scared i am going to need glasses after this but i’m back to normal.
Don’t gaze at a sigil for too long kids 
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So last night i had my first dream with one of my demonic family members.
Obviously was Clauneck. We were like partners in business and He was guiding me across various dimensions it seems. We were travelling the multiverse in search for different opportunities to start a massive business that seemed to span billions of realities.
We went trough some crazy ass universes that seemed to be taken straight out of a mushroom trip plus sci-fi movies.
But here’s the twist, Clauneck was a woman!? A blonde lady that was pretty hot and we ended up having sex?!?!?!? HUH??? Isn’t Brother Clauneck a masculine figure?
And can i please get some help understanding this? thx.
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Hi there. I want to do a offering to clauneck for my husband business and for betterment on the whole. Can u give me a guideline to how to structure things. As far as the alter is concerned. I want to do it tuesday. What kind of wine does he drink and must I put water for him.
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@Jewel_Hamilton The way i made the pact with Brother Clauneck which seems to be Sister Clauneck after last night’s dream 
Is i have written some requests on a piece of paper then i entered in my trance state of mind to listen to the void for His/Her’s 
requests. What i have offered Him is a valuable astral creation of mine that i put my love in making, the promise to use His sigil in my businesses, allowed Him to be part of my life and astral life, and in the end when my business becomes successful i accepted for Him to take 20% of the money my company would have produced. Of course my requests were greedy as shit so that’s why the huge bill.
But as for your requests i’m thinking that you try talking to Him yourself. It is more reassuring for you that what you did is true and leaves no room for doubt.
And to the wine part, the day i intended to buy Him a bottle of wine i went to the nearest store and to my surprise, just at the entrance of the store they were offering a promotion to a brand of wine i don’t remember now. Anyway Clauneck saw me wanting to offer Him wine so he rearranged reality so that i don’t really need to search for the wine. He doesn’t care for the type of wine. Just offer Him what you feel intuitively is the one He wants.
But the wine was also after i made the pact not before.
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Okay. U said wine not alcohol. Like vodka. What about ciroc is a flavored alcohol. Also what’s the best time to do this. Next thing should I hold the sigil in my hand and talk to him by asking him for something and giving him something in return.Then set up the alter , give him the offering on top of the on the sigil.
Can u tell me the items u have on your alter. Cause I bought all the things the research told me he like. Like cactus , red and light green candle , white with his sigil on it, dragons blood incense, crystal glass of course. Animals like horse , deer, wolf.
Should I put a glass of water on the alter also. Normal tap water
Does the wine have to be alcoholic or can it be non alcoholic
I do my magic on an hereditary warlock basis, my connection to the void makes it easier for me to make pacts and pay respects to the demons so i don’t need to make such a complicated altar. I only placed a simple candle in a small glass container over the contract and an A4 color print of the sigil of Brother Clauneck behind them. Every now and then i give the sigil a drop of my blood and i pour some of the wine i bought in a wine glass and leave it on the altar. Sometimes He likes me to put the drop of blood in the wine and mix it in…
But my relationship with my demonic brethren is an ancient one that goes far beyond Earth so i do not require that much detail. We are on a love/trust relationship more than a business basis.
I can see that you, on the other hand, are a spirit of nature deeply immersed in the light of mother Terra. Are you SURE you want to join us, the infernal family just like that?
If you have already made your choice then you can find a lot more useful information on this forum about Clauneck. And He usually works great with Duchess Bune in an epic team to help you succeed financially. I’m not the one to turn to for guidance as in this incarnation i am re-learning my old ways and i am rejoining Apocrypha. so until i become a master like E.A. i am not the best model to follow. But wish you the best of journeys bright one! 
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Thank you. And yes I have made a decision to work with him…
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Do u have a email where we can chat more.
What is the best time to do the ritual
Please stop asking me questions. I am not a master and i am not able to give you advise. Search more on this forum.
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Thank you. Sorry bout the questions