I did my first evocation with Haures tonight. I’ve been waiting for over a month to do this and finally felt “ready”.
I’m using Gordon Winterfield’s ritual 3 for this and everything was going perfectly - I was able to totally zone out, the entire room disappeared and I felt like I was in another realm - until I called his named, heard a loud bang on my wall and the air changed. I saw nothing though. Embarrassingly, I felt unsure of myself then, got nervous but managed to make my request/offering and then closed it down.
I ended up rushing through and skipping some parts. I didn’t feel anything negative at all, it was 100% my nerves that just kicked in right when that loud bang happened. I feel more prepared now since I’ve at least done 98% of the ritual …as much as I believe, there is always that lingering doubt and I think actually hearing/feeling this presence knocked that doubt right out of me.
I needed that, but I also still need Haures, so do you think it would be okay to try again tomorrow night?