Lucius Journal 10: Azazel

Hello, everyone. Lucius here.

I had completed my evocation of Azazel this morning. A few weeks ago, he taught me exercises I could do to train my senses even further. He wants me to take them to the next level. He stated that he wanted to see me again in two weeks to test my senses. To see if I had taken him and his training seriously.

Well, today was exactly two weeks, and I evoked him this morning.

He appeared to me as his original satyr form. This was different from the form he appeared to me when he was training me…the form of a gentle teacher. I could tell now, that he was serious this time.

Azazel: Are you ready, Lucius?
Me: Yes sir.
Azazel: Good. Let us begin.

I can tell now, after so many evocations, that the demons (I hate calling them that now, but they don’t mind. I will use it for this sake) have become more comfortable with revealing themselves to me and interacting with me and my environment. When I felt his presence, it was even stronger than the last evocation. Like a physical person, or when you know someone is near you. In the corner of the room, I saw a physical shadow with my physical eyes; a silhouette of a person. It kind of freaked me out, but I didn’t pay attention to it.

I have a blackout curtain in my ritual space. It was partially open, allowing some sunlight to come through the dark room. When Azazel said “let us begin”, the candle light popped and went very high where he was located. The curtain…slowly closed until the room became dark. By itself.

This freaked me out.

Me: (nervous, heavy breathing) Fuck…fuck…shit…
Azazel: Calm down, boy. Sit.

I sit immediately, more out of fear.

Azazel: You are in this path deeply now. There is no need to be afraid of my presence. As I said, let’s begin.


Azazel: My, my…So, you have been practicing. Quite diligently, it seems.
Me: Was that good?
Azazel: That was…excellent, Lucius. You have proven your dedication, and you have earned my full trust.
Me: (relived) haha, that’s good. Thank you. You know, I wouldn’t be here today if you hadn’t told me to trust what I see. Months ago you appeared, and I thought I was going mad. I thought I should go to a mental hospital. When you said that I should trust what I see, there was a small portion of me that said perhaps I’m not crazy. Perhaps, I’m just spiritually gifted.
Azazel: And you are. I knew that sooner or later, you’d find out. Now, keep doing the exercises I have given you. In terms of ‘feeling’, I need you to take this to the next level. More than you already have.
Me: Certainly. What needs to be done?
Azazel: I want your senses to open tremendously. That can not be done to our expected liking without assistance from other forces.
Me: Hmm…what are you suggesting?
Azazel: Lucius. I need you to summon a succubus. In your ritual space. With you.
Me: …so, you want me to summon a succubus, and have intercourse with her in my ritual space?
Azazel: Yes.
Me: Well, Look…I’m not going to question it. I love the idea. But how does Lilith feel about it?
Azazel: I have already spoken with her. She happily agreed. You, of all people, should enjoy it.
Me: Alright. I’ll do it.
Azazel: Next week. Sunday.
Me: Sunday. Got it.


Me: Can I ask you something before you go?
Azazel: I suppose I have a few more minutes.
Me: You’re smart, Azazel. I want to hear your opinion. It’s been on my mind for the longest time and I’ve been meaning to ask you. Do you think our world still has a chance?
Azazel: A chance, hm?
Me: Yes. For all of this stuff to be fixed.
Azazel: (brief silence) So let me get this right… you think that a world full of a distracted, spiritually dumbed down population, wars, racism, terrorism, sexism, and a small pack of psychopaths at the top of the hierarchy, has a small chance to be saved?
Me: Well, I didn’t say-
Azazel: Saved by who?
Me: I don’t kn-
Azazel: By you? Alone?
Azazel: You feel as though you can save this world, don’t you? Deep down…
Me: I feel as though I can at least assist in telling the masses what is truly going on.

When I said that, Azazel let out a huge laugh; the kind where someone tells you the funniest joke. The candles started popping.

Azazel: Lucius, I’ve been watching you since birth. You have good intentions, and you have a big heart. I respect, and admire that. But you are also foolish to think that you can save this world, and that these people will listen to you. Especially after what happened in your childhood. Have you forgotten?
Me: No, I didn’t.

The candle flames went high now. The highest that they had ever been, almost physically impossible. The energy in the room went high. This time, Azazel sounded frustrated.

Azazel: Jordin H___, the boy who was bullied through childhood. The boy who nobody understood. The boy who was incredibly lonely. The boy who was outcasted by everyone but his immediate family. The boy who feels like a ghost in the world. The boy…who nobody ever listens to…thinks that he should save this world. Little does he know that his heart is what is getting in his way.
Me: What’s wrong with being a good person?
Azazel: There is nothing wrong with it, Lucius. The problem is that you’re too good, for this world, at least. I’ve watched you for ages now. Even when people put you down, even when people made you feel like you were worthless. I witnessed it all. You came to this path because while you were good deep down, you were fed up with the world. You were fed up with how people treated you. You were fed up with losing. You tried to be good, and you know this. It never worked out, and you started to question whether it was still worth it…Whether the masses deserved a savior in the first place. Should I be good and face suffering and ridicule? Or should I go bad and finally get something out of a twisted prison planet? You thought choosing the latter would make you seem emotionally weak. Yet you felt as though you didn’t have a choice.
Azazel: then, you finally became fed up. You started to hate the world because of what people did to you. You turned dark. You told yourself that if people didn’t want to be helped, then you were going to turn to the dark side. And you did. As dark as it sounds…this world turned you from a good-hearted person, into a monster.
Azazel: I thought you’d realize that by now. That’s why you came to us. You thought that we could help you gain power. You wanted it all: money, sex, authority…the hatred got so bad that you wanted to become God. And now, you say that you want to help people see the truth. You say that you want to save this world, even after what it did to you. Look around you…does the world look like it wants to be saved?
Azazel: I know that it’s a dark place out there, Lucius. But you’re better off not wasting your time. You have a good heart, but its getting in the way of what you really desire. Good people do exist, but there are too few on Earth for it to be considered a paradise. And as the masses continue to over-indulge in mindless behaviors instead of choosing to see the big picture, it will only get worse. If I were you, I’d stop being so nice, and I’d let this world go…wouldn’t want to be taken advantaged of again. Remember: you’re one of us now. We only want to see you grow in power. And sometimes, you need get a little dark to do so. So Don’t be a hero.

I still sat silent. The candle flames calmed down now.

Azazel: Now, I never want to have that conversation with you again, understand?
Me: (nervously) Yes sir.
Azazel: I will see you again in two weeks. Do as I requested.

He left after that and the room returned to normal. It had to be the most energy-filled evocation thus far. Thanks for reading!

  • Lucius

Reading this brought me to tears because hearing everything that happened to you reminds me so much of me. I was someone who was so kind and wanted nothing more but to make people happy, but even so they’d shoot me down and never acknowledge that I existed, even if I had a lot to offer. Reading all of your journals is inspiring me to better myself and have more confidence in myself, thank you so much for posting this I will have to talk to Azazel myself sometime.


Thanks for reading, Brian. I am happy that you find my journals inspiring :blush:


Another great journal entry.
I really enjoy reading yours. :blush:

Late to this but I agree that most people are just sleepwalking products of their environment filled with garbage food entertainment and just wasting their sexual energy , majority of society is probably functioning at a fraction of their potential and the world seems to get more insane every day

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That’s very true. Some time after the event above, I’ve now come to realize that perhaps Azazel was right. I figured this information is of such great importance to the benefit of humanity, but I realized that most people simply don’t want this knowledge. Not because they don’t have any means to receive it, but because they just don’t care, or because they are in fear.

That’s their choice, though. I can see why. I feel like knowing all of this information comes at a great cost. While my life is dramatically improving, this is honestly the loneliest i’ve ever been… it makes high school look like a networking event. It seems as though the more information I learn, and the more I find out about the world, the more I drift away from the common man and woman (in terms of deep connection). I just don’t connect to people anymore… I feel like subconsciously, some people know this will happen, which is why they choose to ignore this information.

Its gotten so bad, in fact, that it is even beginning to show itself in my relationships with close family. We get along like usual, but there’s just something missing…something spiritual.

And yeah, I have the spirits, I have my succubus, and I have the people on this forum, but I still feel an emptiness. I have nobody physically local to me to just spark a conversation about the mysteries of our world. Everyone wants to talk about football, or politics, or random gossip. And its not like this information is hidden anymore. Its out there now. Most times I can only think…”wtf is wrong with these people?”

I really didn’t want to believe in the whole ‘NPC’ theory without having enough evidence of it, but honestly…I’m starting to think that perhaps it is true…


I can relate to this on such a deep level , I have felt that way for the past 2 years , and my last of year of high school I thought I was actually going insane because of how retarded the conversations , it was literally guys talking about the same shallow things for months on end I was starting to loose it at the thought of how monotonous and mundane the conversations were. Anyways just having some hobbies like fitness, martial arts, doing something entrepreneurial , will give you an avenue to have conversations , and even if what’s going on socially is extremely dumbed down , just completely be in the present moment and try to enjoy just having people to converse with , even if the NPC theory is true I still enjoy on the occasion I do go out socializing with people because at the end of the day even if they are shallow they have free will to choose to spend time with me and be interested in reciprocating social interaction if that makes sense, and I always think that people deep in the occult can enjoy conversations with intellectuals because we are here in the first place mainly out of a deep curiosity and being bored with the status quo ,


Good points. I mean, its not like things are going to change anytime soon. Regardless, this knowledge will find its way into the right people eventually. It will find its way to those who are ready. Its kinda cool, tbh… this world is like a big ass video game lol. And magick is like a hack. Well, probably not…if its a natural occurrence, that means its part of the ‘game’ lol


It is hacking because in the physical realm unlike astral our thoughts take a great amount of time to manifest and magick helps us to manipulate energy and manifest faster , this reality is probably held in place by insane technology by a higher intelligence so in a way it is a simulation / video game


What a profound story. Thank you. As some have said the right people are finding this. I have a Jinn telling me to connect with Azazel. I have had his name over an app called Necrophonic.

I am learning a bit before I reach for him to make an introduction…

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