Hello, everyone. Hope your day is well.
I wanted to make a progress report on my present addictions, and how Belial has currently affected them. As some know, about a month ago, Belial got onto my ass about my addictions to pornography and processed food, arguably worse than Lilith ever scolded me. It seems that he really does not like addiction or dependency. At all. In his words to my ears, he finds it weak.
I wanted him to help me become financially free and make $10,000 a month in passive income, through the avenue of music. I spoke with him about this, and he said he would help me, if I had promised to quit my addictions for good.
He refused to budge. He would not make this deal with me until I promised to quit porn and my dependency on junk food for life. Of course, me latching on to the only two things that really make me happy, I found his request to be repulsive.
We argued. We fought. I tried to persuade him to anything else, because I really needed his help. He showed me how quickly and how effortlessly he can work in the past, so I needed that kind of power. But he refused to give it to me unless i sacrificed both of my addictions for life.
Not only that, but he took it a step further, by adding servere consequences to our pact. If I was to ever disobey him and willingly eat junk food or beat off to porn, he would burn my music studio to the ground, one of my most prized possessions. And if this wasn’t enough, and I developed a “fuck it, what the Hell” attitude after this, he would progressively destroy my life. My friendships, my house, my car, my careers, everything. Until I was left homeless.
As you can see, extremely serious consequences. Of course, I was furious. I thought such things were unnecessary. We argued back and forth during the evocation. But Belial wouldn’t let up. He had a “take it or leave it” attitude.
Furious at him, but having no other options, I agreed to his terms, and we both made the promise in blood. He would help me make $10,000 per month in passive income, and I would quit my addictions to porn and junk food (with few exceptions) for life. When I asked him why he is doing this, he bluntly proclaimed “Because you have come too far in this path to be this weak. If you want more of our help, I’m going to make sure that you purge all weakness within you.”
And that was that. I left the evocation furious, but lacking no other option. I knew that the only way to move now is forward.
AFTER ONE MONTH
Guys…it has been one month since then. One month.
That may seem minuscule to some, but keep in mind that I could not go a day without eating a slice of pizza, and I could not go a Week without beating off…
To move from lasting only a few days to a week, to an entire month is severe progress, and more than I ever did in years. I’m not sure what Belial did, but whatever sorcery he had done, it fucking worked.
DEPENDENCY IS NON-EXISTENT
Guys…
I have completely lost my dependency to both junk food and pornography. It is non-existent now. What were once extreme urges, cravings, and withdrawal symptoms are now no more. After the agreement, I simply stopped. There was no ounce of interest left within me to participate in these behaviors. Its like I had never discovered them in the first place. I don’t know how this happened! I don’t know if its because the severe consequences greatly out-weighed the risk, or if Belial himself did something to my brain. But my cravings are GONE.
EXTREME MENTAL CLARITY
The mental clarity that came with this process is insane. Because I have quit both processed food and pornography, I am not able to think clearly. I can’t express how much this one aspect has helped me with studying and in business. To know that I can go hours without feeling “brain fog” has sky-rocketed my confidence.
DEEPER VOICE
My voice…it scares me now. In a good way.
This portion must have been from the semen retention. My voice went from sounding like a child to sounding like I hit puberty three times in a row. Ladies and gentlemen…my voice… is literally Barry White deep now. Literally. I don’t sound like how I look anymore, and people have began to comment on my voice positively.
HEALTHIER SKIN, BODY, EVERYTHING
Because of the semen retention, and because I no longer feed it with toxic foods, my body has and is currently going through a “healing process”.
For the first time in twenty years, I have 100% clear, vibrant skin for the first time. My mother always commented on how awful my skin looked. Its not that she hated me, but she just wanted to make the issue known. She would constantly get onto me about using pharmaceuticals to get rid of my acne, and I would, but to no avail. The medicine just didn’t work. Now, after a month of working with Belial, my skin has completely healed. You have no idea how good it feels to hear my mother say “Wow! Your skin is looking great!” after 10 years. Of course, I didn’t tell her the real reason…
My body has gone through significant changes, as well from both my diet and nofap/semen retention. My muscles, while they already existed, have become more defined. My abs are showing up far more than they use to, and my jawline has become more defined. I feel as though this is due to both my body producing more testosterone because I am not wasting my seed, and because my severe cut-down of processed food has allowed my body to eliminate excess fat.
My hair has also significantly improved. I had a scalp condition that caused my head to have flakes. A month into this journey, and this condition has been severely eliminated to the point where it is barely even noticeable anymore.
EXTREME CONFIDENCE BOOST, ENERGY AND DRIVE
Supposedly due to the testosterone, and due to the fact that I don’t eat like shit anymore, my confidence has been amazingly boosted, to the point where I feel like i’m a literal bad-ass. I now walk taller, and walk better. This is completely subconscious. One day I woke up, and found myself walking more confidently.
The amount of motivation I have is insane. I use to be a gamer, but I have now completely stopped by my own merit in pursuit of better ways to spend my time. I picked up many hobbies out-of-the-blue, and I find myself having extreme motivation to do things that my past-self would have said “meh” on…
and the sleep…I don’t need it anymore for some reason. Where before I would seem to either wake up feeling sluggish, or sleep in until late in the afternoon, I now currently find myself only getting three hours worth of sleep, and not feeling tired at all upon waking up. I set no alarms, either. I find myself only needing a couple of hours before I am fully “recharged”. For some, this may seem extreme. But for a workaholic and aspiring entrepreneur like myself, this is a God-Send.
IN THE RARE INSTANCES, JUNK FOOD TASTES AWFUL
The pact had a couple of exceptions.
I was allowed to participate in the eating of processed food if I was out with family, friends, or with a date. I was also allowed to eat it if it was gifted to me. He understood that most people around me didn’t give a shit about their diet, so he decided to save me the trouble of “looking like an arrogant asshole”.
In the rare times that I did, however (which was only twice this month), I noticed that processed food began to taste like, well…utter shit.
Something about it just makes me find it repulsive. Keep in mind, I’ve had this addiction all my life, since I was a child. The fact that I now find it disgusting is amazing, almost supernatural. I went from eating it at every meal to finding it extremely repulsive. I can’t explain exactly why. When I do eat it in the rare instances, I seem to find it disgusting. It makes me feel like shit now. It doesn’t have “the taste” like it usually does. You would think that for me being off of it this long, I would literally taste God himself, but for some reason it is the exact opposite. I’m not complaining, though!
PRESENT DAY
Seeing all of the benefits Belial’s scolding had given me, I obviously saw how wrong and immature I acted. So I made an effort to abruptly approach him and apologize. It took some effort to get my manly Ego out of the way, but I made the decision to personally admit to him that I was wrong, and he was right.
Belial saw no problem with this, and told me I do not need to apologize for my behavior. In his words, the fact that I was even listening to him and making an effort to change was enough of an apology. That being said, let me take the time to personally thank Belial for getting me out of my hypnotic state of weakness, and showing me that the grass is greener on the other side, even if I am behind a fence. It is too early to say that I am cured, but this month marks a significant step in progress.
HAIL BELIAL!
