So much to unpack here, there is another world/dimension in Saturn, its like its own entity, stories never told, events unfolding past and future, wonder and desire its all there.
there are so many things that happened that i cannot explain, i remember desiring to go to the beach, and there i was, a beach manifested but i could not move, my astral body was not solidified yet, i began running as my body starts unfolding but it was difficult, then somebody grabbed hold of me. It was Lucifuge, he supported my whole body in the air as we flew above the waves, I was honestly caught up in the feeling of it being gay just the way he was so close, but he was really supportive, a side i never thought i’d see.
I fully experienced Lucifuge Rofocale, he manifested as the darkest cloud/mist with someone I recognized standing beside me. His energy felt very, calm, yet very powerful. a mix between Belial and Azazel not as intense/primal as Belial, but dark, and not as electrifying as azazel, very calm and masculine. I felt like he was also a mix between cloud and sephiroth from final fantasy.
as I was looking over the waters when I found a gorgeous woman, it was a mermaid, this caught me off guard, and I heard Lucifuge yell for the first time, it was loud like close to screaming but very soft and quiet, “GO GET HER” she looked at me and went back in the waters and I dove in for her, but right when I went in she transformed into to something grotesque and angrey.
She was lashing out at me and apparently Lucifuge told me my arm got stuck with hers. keep in mind this is all happening real-time. I break free from her arm and I go the other way, and then she transforms back into her super hot, gorgeous sexy form. she was really something else. I told her i don’t mind or care about her lashing out at me, then something happened. Just her looking at me and me looking at her captivated my heart and the words I love you came out. Like my heart just activated it felt like i was in love and i had to say those words.
Man what the fuck bro. I believe she was displeased almost disgusted with my response, and she said that i shouldn’t be saying things along those lines and felt the disparity then. what a feeling, the feeling that i could just feel up a mermaid just because she was there, and her interest in me.
I’m heartbroken, I woke up and could STILL feel my heart light up. first time ever. first time I just regret not getting into it with a mermaid, its eating away at my heart. I could’ve gotten it, i could’ve gotten it with a hottie from another planet. mermaids are something else