Well, it’s almost midnight for me, and no manifestation from him has happened… He’s probably fast asleep already, so at least on my Saturday he won’t text. However, I did something I saw in another post: Ex back with Stanachia, and instead of just being here mourning for the wicked, I texted a guy and he accepted to come to my house to do more than just talking… I do have to say I feel bad; I haven’t had anything sex-related with anyone for over 3.5 years, and I do feel like I cheated, but, it was with an specific purpose… I ritualized the act, focusing on redirecting the sexual energy to my ex in order to make him feel like he’s losing me by being so silent and distant. Like the post about Stanacia said, this guy was extremely sexual and passionate with me, like I was a Sean Cody model or something, probably a result of calling for Bechard’s name in order to induce passion and obsession in my target… I really focused on sending that energy to him, not like a “hey, I’m cheating” bomb, more like a “hey, I also can go on without you” bomb for the manifestation to occur without attachment. I do say again I feel bad, because this is new to me, but I do feel empowered and capable of detaching more. I don’t want to, but I could…
Probably what’s coming to madrid this Saturday is this energy I just sent, and me calling this guy and him accepting out of nowhere was the action that was meant to happen… It’s also kind of a testimony of me having certain charm over these younger guys; he is young, handsome, and doesn’t really need anything from me. We talked a lot too; it wasn’t just the act of fellation, and he has a similar personality to my ex, so he was able to give me some insight about what he could have been thinking when he acted the way he acted…
Now, let’s see how it goes… I really hope this bomb reaches Madrid and causes him to wake up in need of me.
I feel like Julie from Julie and Julia redacting these… Is anyone reading? Anyone? LOL
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Not a positive report, I believe. I quickly checked his social networks; he has them public, and he’s been reposting stuff like “I don’t need to chase a man” or comparing himself to Lotso from Toy Story 3, who turned evil after he was hurt… So, I don’t know how to digest that… Who hurt him? Because I know I didn’t. A couple people I know that are aware of what he did told me he’s just a gold digger and an opportunist, and he’s just trying to put on a justifier mask to say, “I’m like this because I was hurt.” So what now? Is he implying he will be dating anyone he wants, with no love interests involved? Just feeding on their energy and wealth? Not sure if he’s purposely posting that kind of stuff for me to see it, but that’s so… stupid, coming from him? If we’re talking about being hurt, then I should be robbing a bank to compensate with money and stuff the pain he has caused me… What’s this facade? I’m really confused.
The tarot lady I visited has offered me to do a “partner liberation,” a ritual to clean and dismantle the pain and pride that may be interfering with the energy… Maybe I shouldn’t take a social media post too seriously, but it’s been three in a row each day, so at least he’s trying to promote a mindset.
I can’t express how hard this is for me; I mean, all of it. I keep getting synchronicities, and for the first time since the pact, I had no dreams to remember last night… It was all darkness. It was like my psychic senses shut down. Maybe he is feeling my influence, and that’s why he needs to reaffirm his will by showing this face to social media in order to show he’s not being affected when, in fact, he’s being affected? It’s a sudden change of narrative, from “I’m all happy with my new life” to “I’m a bad boy, and I will eat you if you cross my path.”
Help.
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Thanks… I’m just not sure about giving it a rest. Tomorrow I will begin a new magick attack. Wish me success.
Quick update: now I’m learning to smoke and read tobacco The tarot lady is teaching me, AND, he unblocked me on TikTok lol 
That’s something, right? Now I can say it’s not a full block. I can’t say if he unblocked me on Instagram because I can’t access it, but so far I’m still blocked on WhatsApp, which is the actual main communication channel.
The tobacco readings are very positive in general, so I’m more optimistic. I will get a new tarot deck, looking for the right one for me, like choosing my wand at Ollivander’s.
Thanks for reading! Will update you again soon!
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Hi there, yet another quick update. Dreams with him returned, and this time they’re not precisely all lovey-dovey; in one dream he says he doesn’t trust me, and that’s why he doesn’t want me around… A couple days ago he posted a pic of him with an unknown girl, and it poked my interest because in another dream he said he was interested in someone, but a girl this time. He does have a dark, straight past…
Anyway, I went to bed, and I had a dream about him, with me warning him to not trust everyone like he always does, and he said, “But Stephanie is different,” and I told him, “She’s not your friend; she’s just an acquaintance.” In the morning, driven by my curiosity, I searched for this Stephanie on Instagram, and BAM, there she was. He follows her. The pic he uploaded (on a whatsapp status; remember, I have a whatsapp account he doesn’t know I still have) was the first time I saw this girl, so it was very surprising that the name he told me in the dream was her actual name…
Quick Update: Still no positive manifestation. The TikTok unblocking was a false alarm. I was using TikTok on my PC, and it showed like unblocked, but after logging in in my phone, I was still blocked… So yeah, still nothing. The witch I’m working with says she’s baffled; she sees positive thoughts, she sees communication, and even the cards show an opening, but still nothing. Actually, he blocked the WhatsApp I was using to see when he was online; I’m not sure why… She said she’s going to prepare a spiritist session to channel her spiritual helpers; I gotta buy a few things for that but will do. Won’t give up. It’s been eight days since I started to work with her, and a girl who had the same predicament I am in, saw results after 13 days…