I’ve been consistently finding that when I am raising my Vibrational Frequency for Magick that I can not only see my energy about me in the room, but it attracts insects; moths, flies, beatles, gnats, ants, spiders, hornets or yellow jackets, and even for the first time last night, a praying mantis! I have taped up around my air conditioner window like the Armageddon is tomorrow, and yet these insects manage to tear or chew their way through it to be in the space even if the lights get turned out. Oh…I forgot to mention Pixies! Yes, tiny clumps of fur (cat, dog, miscellaneous clothing lint and fibers, which seem to cluster into a nice sized visible being), seem to literally not only shock me with static electricity (they feel like they’re biting me), they also seem to come from within me, out to the world! I have had times when magick is finished and I’ve gone to sleep that I can feel the little nibblers in bed under my blankets, and in the morning, I can see the red marks all over my legs from where it felt like they were biting.
I know this is the ONLY forum where I can talk about this, and people will accept the fact that I was temporarily insane! That’s part of being a magician, right? Well, wait it gets just a tiny bit better.
I always feel famished after meditations with music and digital frequencies, or magick, especially my magick which tends to lean towards the CHAOS side of things. However, while I’m very happy to chow down on leftover tacos, or lasagna, or even a salad, but nothing turns that excitement to eat right off except seeing my parts of my food move, or the bugs or little gnats that seem to follow me about for about 12 hours after, also like to endulge. But truthfully, I’ve seen lobster claws slowly move after being fully cooked, and heard my lasagna make funny squeaking noises, and seen the fresh parsley, thyme, and sage seem to crawl over my pasta (mind you…VERY SLOWLY!) but it happens right after coming right out of the microwave. The food doesn’t make the noises or move, nor insects or pixies followning me about on a normal and regular basis. Am I doomed to step away from magick? It makes me VERY uncomfortable, and while I know I won’t wind up institutionalize over food and bugs, at least not yet, it is beoming a bit tiresome, to the point where I just don’t know what to do any more. It’s distracting and detracting from my work. Any suggestions??? Has anyone else experienced any of this as well, or am I the odd ball out??? I sure hope not! I can’t take another failure in my life…lol. Tried asking Azazel for help with keep the bugs away, but I’m not sure he heard me last night. Sorry, I hope this wasn’t the most annoying topic to be posted yet on BALG. I searched just in case there was a similar thread already up, but didn’t see one.