Lost in the dark

Sounds like you have been. Not a deep intensive style, but a take it as you go approach is not wrong, if it works for you.

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Im going to find a book on it so I can learn a more intensive method than what I am currently doing. Its been a nice start and it helps me in the moment.

I’ve been scouring the internet for beads, charms, furs and feathers to use on my dream catcher. I’ve decided im going to hang it differently, instead of hanging it from one point and letting the hoop hang vertically. Im going to hang it from 3 points so hangs horizontal. You’ll have to look up at it to see the webbing.

I plan on hanging it over my head where I sleep so when I lay on my back I should see the webbing with streamers and shit hanging.

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Hoop and weave completed. Now on to decorating it.

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I doubt I’ll leave it with this exact setup. But this is how I want it to hang. So when I look up ill see the webbing.

I’ve recently been reaching out and making contact with king Mammon and Furcas. Im really enjoying the current direction in which my life is headed.


I’m glad to hear that your depression has been lifted.

Shrooms had that effect on me. Shortly after, I started researching Demons and magick.

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Last night I was out in my garage enjoying the music and moment. I stopped to give thanks for all the positive changes I’ve been having and going through. Also for the lessons I’ve learned in the hard times too.

For me visualization is a bit of a process. I think of it as layers. I see my environment and I start adding layer on top of layer of more and more definition. Its my current process and so far it works for me.

The first thing I noticed was a man in a light brown almost grey robe that went all the way down to his feet. I didn’t need to look up as I knew who this was. I instantly rush in to embrace them and thank them. The huge was quick and also returned. I then knelt to start to speak my thanks. I need to note that through all of this I instantly stopped my layering process and my entire environment just disappeared. But he was in fine detail. Down to the point that I could see the square stitches in the robes. It was then I noticed he was a little off from normal. Not in a bad way but totally unexpected. The details in him were so magnificent that I was kinda taken back for a moment. It was then that I looked up to meet his face. He did not have the normal face I am used to seeing, no long black flowing hair, no chiseled features. This time he had a laughing goats head. I tried to change it as I was no prepaired for it. I couldn’t. I had no power of visualization like I normally do. I then saw an owl with their wings spread. The owls next then started to rapidly extend to about a foot long. The head and neck wiped around erratically sorts like a wacky waving inflatable arm flailing tube man.

After that I popped out of my visualization. I enjoyed the sensation so I tried to go right back. Ofc nothing was the same.

So yesterday was here and gone before I even knew it. I got up late due to sat night D&D. I played a random short session of D&D again with another group of friends who are all new to it. Then I had a friend over for a bit. My wife made Italian beef sammiches!! I opened my book to start reading. Next thing I know it’s 10pm and my wife is waking me up face down in my book. I vaguely remember moving from desk to bed. I went back to sleep and woke up at 8 am. I slept for about 14 hours…


Serious question here, the amount of people using magic for such mundane matters as to get laid is astonishingly high. That’s the best idea they could come up with on how they can change their lives?


I always wondered about that too. I guess it could either open the door for them to practice in a serious way or they will leave after their quickie with magick is over.

I got into magick because I had seriously fucked my life up and desperately wanted to change who I was so that I could be happy. All I want is to do better for myself and be all that I can be.

Ive been reading your journal btw and hope you are doing well

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I have been doing a lot better recently.

I finished S Connolly book tonight. It was a really pleasant read and I enjoyed all the information about holidays and rites. Im going to try and find more information about this but I just dont come across it much.

I’ve got my turkey and everything else I believe I’ll need for my turkey day dinner. I for one am excited to get this going. I like making these big home made meals. I think I’ll do the deviled eggs tomorrow so I can get a head start on being a fat fuck. This will be the first time ill be doing food offerings to this degree and not just small thank yous.

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