Something that happened tonight I would like to talk about with you as a dabbler in evokation.
This time (it’s full moon) , I decide to evoke a particular dark God from the ONA litterature. I set up the ritual, add an offering for the God . I start trying to obtain the crossroad to be able to feel his presence. That’ was difficult, because ONA don’t give to much informations about each dark gods, so the preparative immersion was not at his best. Just add the sigil , the name and what he is suppose to do. I passed maybe 20 minutes calling his name and without feeling any particular presence. That after a long , long time, I start feeling at the crossroad, with the sensation of not be alone. The god manifest itself as something wild, like the feeling to have a werewolf or a beasty creature puting is two hand on my shoulders to manifest his presence.
I raise my eyes from the sigil to the smoke, but as I do so, it was more and more difficult to sense the presence of the spirit in the room, and my crossroad sensation had decreased a lot. I try to gain it back and I felt again the impression of “not being alone”, but I didn’t found back the impression of real dark presence that I felt before.
Does some of you had this phenomena before ? How do you react to this ?
Of course, I finished the ritual, give the command , even if the answer that come to my mind was not very conclusive (something like “the true God is inyourself, my essence is not what will help you on this way”). Hard to know if this was the answer of the spirit or my subconscience deception on the ritual that give me the answer.