alright let’s start out where I am in my development
Stronger than I’ve ever been, though been hitting a plateau lately… just feeling kind of stuck. quit smoking, trying to optimize my diet. getting to where I can reach the Theta/gamma sync and some other states quite easily through meditation within minutes, getting to where energy is feeling quite solid(sort of if a wave could be solid, like the coating of a cell) when I work on shielding, and creating psi balls. Financially I’m broke, and I’m living in Perpetual Isolation(in other words, I rarely get to leave the house, I live in the middle of no where). this is about to change though, as I’m about to leave for Job corp within the month, probably be there for most of a year, and then I’ll be working as an electrician.
dreamwise: I’ve gotten where lucid dreams are common, and I’m getting to the level of awareness where I can think and experiment(protip: shouting the word door in a dream will immediately give you an escape route if you have as many nightmares as I do), I’ve been studying Jungian psychology and this actually helped greatly with both producing lucid dreams and understanding the content of my dreams.(the more you work with your subconscious the more it will help you out)
Magick: I’m limited on supplies, so I’m working with printed sigils a black mirror I created and an athame… the only serious work I’ve been doing is shit to help with the job corp situation(I was working with ant’harratu to get the gulfport location to start up by a certain date, and lo and behold) I’d don’t really have many opportunities to manifest my desires… I understand how magick works or at least have one understanding how it works… it works with what exist, and brings about the quickest way to get your desire, but it’s not likely to deliver it gift wrapped to your doorstep… so I’m trying to find ways to practice, without working with goals I know would be next to impossible, due to my isolation…
so here is what I’m wondering…
I work on astral projection quite often but no results, besides and increase in vibration radiating from or in conjunction with my body, and traveling around in my own mindscape… any Ideas how I can achieve more sufficient results? other than continued trial and error?
Alright psi balls and shielding are easy, any psionic constructs beyond these(well I’m working on multilayered psi balls) I can work on, if only for practice/ shits and giggles.
any of you know a good bit about jungian psychology, do you know any forums that focus on jungian (or occult) psychology? also what are some more advanced techniques for lucid dreaming(Evocation in dream space is up there on my list, as soon as I remember to while lucid dreaming, it’s kind of hard to think coherently in dream scape) I’ve gotten to where I can can travel from one dream to the next by jumping through mirrors, windows, hallways, and doors, but I’ve still yet to communicate with spirits directily in dreams(though I have indirectly).
I was working on Reiki, got pretty good at healing myself(both from sickness and injuries, even if it only sped up the recovery process) then fell out of practice and now I can’t do shit, what happened?
also for the black sun meditation, do you do it as soon as you wake up, or do you wait a little bit, also, for how long… I mean, I can imagine a black hole going up and down in an inverted horizon(rising in the west and setting in the east) in 5 seconds, but I’m not sure that is effective lol, and trying to hold on to that image as I go to sleep, seemingly prevents me from sleeping…