It depends what you mean by tolerate. I have spent time breaking my chains from her, commanding her with God names mostly, I can also command in the name of Luicifer but she only softly complies with those demands. I tell her I want her out of my life, sometimes she’s there again and I dunno, sometimes it’s still easier and more natural feeling to be a little nice, maybe it its a mutual psychological thing, but I am not that nice to her, part of my pact was she wouldn’t curse me and so step out of my temple, I go for a shower and next thing she is Ffing me with pretty morbid images, and I’m like um: At least there is a lot of mascara on those sharks and killer clowns but I’m a bit worried this will make me psychotic maybe can we rule this stuff out too, she then told me to kiss the paper.
I guess I am finding the real, real way to make a pact is to write out the rules of engagement on the back, blood on the sigel on the front, if both parties agree you can kiss the paper for an amendment. and then you are supposed to wrap it in saranwrap and burry it so that it doesn’t decompose, but even in that I believe there is something I’m probably missing since most would want there unthought out pact to last forever.
Then she started cursing me which was against the rules of my engagement, at least they were soft curses, She was also cursing the rest of my demons and I decided to break my chains to her then, but they we actually decided to convince me to keep her for a while, they said you worked together in the past you actually love each other this is so fucked up. but when she gave me a really nasty curse it was war from then on. Maybe it’s not so much that I’m nice, but a way of occasionally being civil.
Anyways @Lady_Eva Do you have any idea on what I can do?
@kiss-lamia-lilith @CrypticAce54 I wanted to hang out with her, learn to be better at flirting and better embrace my femininity. I’m also on the Harlot path, which she maybe wanting me to get out of. I think that’s it, she is very much in the same program and I was in this in the past and didn’t give back my remaining demon money. I 'd take a soft harlot over a hadcore succubus any day but I think I will likely get off this path someday.
But I am beginning to think she never will let me go anyways because I think they are probably all just very sophisticated thoughtforms and she is stuck in what programmers call a do loop.