I really want to tell you the full story for better understanding, but I could get in trouble if the wrong person reads this. So let’s move on to the main issue.
The whole story revolves around one girl that I insanely love. There was a moment when I had to hide Lilith’s influence. And I cut off contact with her. When the danger has passed, I asked Lilith for help again, but all I heard was “traitor”. I bought her wine that I like to drink myself and began to pray for forgiveness. I said things like “all people make mistakes, me too. Give me a last chance to show that I am worthy of you.” Then a red light broke through the center of the room, she threw me a red apple with a clearly visible bite. I understood nothing and asked “is it poisoned?”. She thought I was dumb and told me clearly “Eat.”. Later I will understand that the apple that you eat together means your reconciliation.
Lilith told me that she slept with another guy while I didn’t see her for a long time. I was in tears and asked her “Where I made mistake?”. She tell me to not worry and we began to make a plan. This is where the real work begins. I will omit the details, but in the end there was a long-awaited meeting, similar to a fairy tale. I found out that evening that they had nothing. I asked Lilith why she lied to me and she said “to help you find your place”. I thanked her in tears and smoothly fell asleep. I wish the story had ended like this, but…
The girl and that guy didn’t find their places, and I started to miss mine for fear of hurting them. I’ll skip the long drama and we’re coming to a culmination. There were many tears here. At the most important and decisive moment, I had to sign a pact, but I could not afford to do this, because I was confused in my feelings, in the place I should claim. I got very angry with Lilith and swore at her. And on the very next day I received the information that I needed to sign the pact. If you only knew how much pain I experienced in that moment. One signature was not enough for me to complete this story.
Because of my ignorance and stupidity, I made a huge mistake in my life. I realized this only the next day, which I devoted to trying to restore relations with Lilith. In vain. I offered blood, wine and chocolate. All day long I prayed. All night, which is still going on, I worked on myself. When I made a really big change with my mental state and my desire to swear, I went to her again to show it and get forgiveness. But all I heard was “no”.
I’ve never been the kind of guy who is easy to communicate with. I am very rude, especially at the thoughts that for me is a big problem with which I am struggling.
Time goes by and I have very little of it to bring my love back. I think there are 1-2 days left. I wish at all costs to earn forgiveness from Lilith and return the girl I love so much. What should I do? I am completely lost