Not much of an acheivement to be honest.
Yes, as most humans are unaware of their magical abilitiesā¦it is not a great achievment indeed and nothing that makes me proud.
I do wish to evolve more, to develop more skills and that is why i am also here.
To learn, maybeā¦if people donāt mock me all the time and call me namesā¦ i might learn something who knowsā¦
Since you have arrived it has been my observation that you make increasingly bold and often contradictry claims about your abilities and situation and then act with hostility towards anyone who seeks clarification.
If you donāt want to face ridicule then take a back seat for a while and do some learning, post some in depth reports substantiating your experiances and be ready to defend anything you say with clarity. Whilst we appreciate that english is not your primary lanuage we donāt respect questions being twisted or ignored.
Many of our more active members are advanced practicing magicians and to suggest otherwise is only going to land you in shit. If you act respectfully and inteligently you will be treated accordingly.
Yes, it is hard to deal with two personasā¦
I mean, having two inside of me its hard!
So you must understand whyā¦i wrote some stuffā¦
Wellā¦ from now on i will be more exact on what i write and i will clarify whatever i can. I promise she will not write much more and when she does, she does it sepparate from my writing. As in Completely separate.
part of a deal i made with her 
she gets to fuck me whenever she wants and i have freedom ( only here though ) to writeā¦
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[quote=āsunas, post:25, topic:106ā]part of a deal i made with her
she gets to fuck me whenever she wants and i have freedom ( only here though ) to writeā¦[/quote]
Haha awesome so that means you wonāt be going anywhere unless the serious business of the internet takes you out or your freind finishes her cake! I might not agree with much you say but when you shoot the shit with these guys and they get all hot under the collar it is fun to watch the banter between you two. Damn it sunas your bringing out the troll in me, I donāt want to troll balg but when I see people get angry at some goofball on the internet and a shit storm erupts itās so hard not to feed the fire.
But seriously man, in the egregore thread you acted like your invincible after only a year in magic. My occult teachers freind who isnāt quite as strong as he is, but close got fucked up by a nasty curse in peru, heās still recovering. That man I believe is in his forties and spent most of his life doing magic youāll never read about, but even he isnāt untouchable. And these beings who even you have reservations of trusting completely tell you, your bullet proof so to speak? Hmmmā¦ If I were in your shoes I would be rethinking things. Maybe try listening a bit more to people who have spent longer then a year doing this instead of listening to the fanged mouth you are sitting in.
Only for one year it is the time i started to understand certain things, my whole life i had it with me. Around the age of 7 glasses would shatter to dust near me and i never knew whyā¦until last yearā¦
Stuff would move around the houses i lived and i never knew whyā¦
until last yearā¦
Persons near me and from my family when engaging little plays of magic like every curious soul does once in a while would suffer from traumatic events.
I only came to know why all those things happened in my life, when i made a ritual last year.
I will say again. I trust the persons behind the words. Those words were as i said, i can say though that it is not my intention to put that to the test! And if i am not welcome please say i will leave to never come back.
Persons study magic for an entire life, some learn a lot, some learn a lot more, some get to be very powerful magicians, some donāt. What i mean is, it doesnāt matter for how long you practice it, but how you practice it and why. I wouldnāt call myself a magician like i have said before, why ? Because my goal in life is not to be a magician, i want to practice a little here and there but that is not really my main goal, my main goal is at course to be achieved and even though it has to do with magicā¦it is certainly not being a magician or becoming a very powerful one, nor is it to earn God Like Powers or become a " Merlin " I mean that for me is a bit meaningless, what can i say O_o
It is just my opinion thoughā¦
I am doing this for Lilith.
She was the one who made me understand
By the way, they donāt tell me i am bulletproof, no actually in the real world i am very alive and i can die, socially, i can die physically, i can die in many ways and be injured in many many more. My soul though will remain intact and that, is the main point here 
What She Said and i translate, was just given permission :
You are special and you need not to be afraid of anyone or anything.
You are part of us now and we will take care of you as we also do hope you take care of us, specifically, her.*
You belong to us now son.
Whatever comes into your path, it is because i have put it there.
Basically my life right now is being run by Anksha*
And whatever comes into my life, i deeply believe it was Her who put it there.
I donāt deeply believe, i know. I have seen it.
It is not everyday you know you need money, you ask for money desperatly and when you go out to the street after waking up you find money on the floor. It could be a coicidence i knowā¦but it was not.
But money is nothing, i never liked it and i still do not like itā¦
Love is more important
Lust
To deliver myself fully i need to be trained
I have been training on my own but now i am being trained not only by humans
but by them as well
I am sitting on many faces, with many fangs.
7 i think
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[quote=āsunas, post:27, topic:106ā]What i mean is, it doesnāt matter for how long you practice it, but how you practice it and why. I wouldnāt call myself a magician like i have said before, why ? Because my goal in life is not to be a magician, i want to practice a little here and there but that is not really my main goal, my main goal is at course to be achieved and even though it has to do with magicā¦it is certainly not being a magician or becoming a very powerful one, nor is it to earn God Like Powers or become a " Merlin " I mean that for me is a bit meaningless, what can i say O_o
It is just my opinion thoughā¦
I am doing this for Lilith.
She was the one who made me understand
By the way, they donāt tell me i am bulletproof, no actually in the real world i am very alive and i can die, socially, i can die physically, i can die in many ways and be injured in many many more. My soul though will remain intact and that, is the main point here
What She Said and i translate, was just given permission :
You are special and you need not to be afraid of anyone or anything.[/quote]
Bulletproof was a metaphor I used to describe how you believe your immune to spiritual attacks. Some of my buddies here seem to think they could get through whatevers around you if I were so inclined to attack. Of course I have no reason to do that. Whether Poet & company are able to defeat it I have no idea though, so weāll just have to wait and see what comes of that.
My soul though will remain intact and that, is the main point here ;)
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āYou are special and you need not to be afraid of anyone or anything.ā
Yea right, i hear the same from āSatanicā temples in Brazil, where the Priestess will tell you the exactly same bullshit, while the temple sucks the energy from you like you were a MACUMBAāS CHICKEN, but with more Prana.
Seems legit.
requesting facepalm emoticon.
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[quote=āDivinator, post:30, topic:106ā]āYou are special and you need not to be afraid of anyone or anything.ā
Yea right, i hear the same from āSatanicā temples in Brazil, where the Priestess will tell you the exactly same bullshit, while the temple sucks the energy from you like you were a MACUMBAāS CHICKEN, but with more Prana.
Seems legit.
requesting facepalm emoticon.[/quote]
Oldest trick in the book. Worked wonders for the mafia. Itās join us and weāll protect you. Then itās pay up or weāll beat your ass.
One ought never trust a spirit with a sweet tongue that tells one what one wishes to hear.
SO BRUTAL
Sepultura is betterā¦ Max Cavalera rocks
not better, just different. I agree with Cavalera though, those brazilian bands are nuts, especially soulfly
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Roots in my opinion is one of the best rock albums ever.
Not styled as rock more like Hard Core or something like that butā¦thereās so many labels right now i like to think its all rock, electronic music and classical musicā¦ohā¦and then thereāsā¦ popular music O_O xix
[quote=ādefectron, post:26, topic:106ā][quote=āsunas, post:25, topic:106ā]part of a deal i made with her
she gets to fuck me whenever she wants and i have freedom ( only here though ) to writeā¦[/quote]
Haha awesome so that means you wonāt be going anywhere unless the serious business of the internet takes you out or your freind finishes her cake! I might not agree with much you say but when you shoot the shit with these guys and they get all hot under the collar it is fun to watch the banter between you two. Damn it sunas your bringing out the troll in me, I donāt want to troll balg but when I see people get angry at some goofball on the internet and a shit storm erupts itās so hard not to feed the fire.
But seriously man, in the egregore thread you acted like your invincible after only a year in magic. My occult teachers freind who isnāt quite as strong as he is, but close got fucked up by a nasty curse in peru, heās still recovering. That man I believe is in his forties and spent most of his life doing magic youāll never read about, but even he isnāt untouchable. And these beings who even you have reservations of trusting completely tell you, your bullet proof so to speak? Hmmmā¦ If I were in your shoes I would be rethinking things. Maybe try listening a bit more to people who have spent longer then a year doing this instead of listening to the fanged mouth you are sitting in.[/quote]
Too true. I am an absolute beginner, with many years reading and not comprehending, dabbling but not practitioning.
Born moon in leo, sun in libra and neptune in scorpio as my ascendant; my being as the ace, king, queen, 4, 3 and 2 of swords, my calling is now to step out and practice.
But, I always keep in mind as I have seen in my greater work of computer work or lesser job of food service in between contracts, there is and always will be someone better, smarter, faster and more cunning than I. Example, your average sysadmin versus a superhacker/developer of the systems you administer. A mage versus a practioner, a chef versus a short order cook.
Not to say we dont have our occasional moment of genius, my problem was making that occasion into an always. Realistically though as I have said, you would be completely fooling yourself by thinking you are and will always be supreme, as pride comes before the fall.
Iām not the wisest, but hopefully this hits home.
James Del Fuego
[quote=āsunas, post:12, topic:106ā]I havenāt yet come in here because i knew iād find a post like thisā¦
I want to say somethingā¦please donāt mind me if you think my opinion is not right!
I have evoked lilith and invoked.
She is a predator, of that you all can be sure.
Now i ask you all, how many women you know on earth that are predators as well ?
How much do you see women rising onto power positions and taking over men in all sorts of social positions ?
The question is, how many of you thinks this, has anything to do with lilith ?
I tell you, it has.
Not only with her, but yes she is involvedā¦
She was the first Woman not to submit to the will of a Man.
By that sentence only a lot of meanings can come out
I know all those that surround her are vampyrs and she also is.
The first time i met her i endured one night that i will never again forget in my life, i couldnāt believe how much of it was trueā¦because who on earth would believe such as being drained of blood from spots that appeared out of nothing on the tip of my fingers, the sametime that i was being fucked over and over again. She usually doesnāt go aloneā¦and if she doesā¦that is not Good! She always walks around with a pack of men and womenā¦
If you get to be alone with her, i tell you right nowā¦even if it looks good, even if it is goodā¦it is not!
She is indeed a powerful entity but i have met more powerful then her.
The thing about her is the lustā¦the sexual desireā¦the power to drive men crazy and women wishing they havent met her.
I am being trained to serve her and that is what i will do.
Because somehow i feelā¦that Lilithā¦
ā¦is the most powerful female on the cosmos right now.
There are others in her positions, just represent different thingsā¦
As much as i know, i will be serving them all but my owner will be her, Lilith.
She is the most powerful vampyr you will get to know![/quote]
How many female predators have I encountered indeed that may have seemed to be goddesses to me. I call them in my area, entertainers, prostitutes, or strippers, take your pick on the name.
From 18 to 40 I never learned until I gave my life savings to some for momentary pleasure and spiritual and financial bankruptcy, probably fueling their coke addictions, but liked to delude myeself in thinking I was supporting single moms and aspiring teachers/nurses.
Teachers indeed ā teaching me on being screwed whether or not we actually screwed, nurse indeed as the head nurce (okay enough jokes).
Women are running all industries for the most part now, porn, business and many other areas.
I dont view a woman as dumb or weak necessarily ā yes, like some males there will be a dummy or weaker one of the pack.
Same with demons or whattnot I imagine, some will be stronger, some will be weaker, some will teach you, some will screw you one way or the other.
Am I off-base or on-target? No harm or insult meant if any take it that way, just relating my outlook and past experience. I have met many great women, but was dumb and weak by letting myself walk away. No more of that in my life now. I pretty much know what I want in my life these days, and I dont think Lilith will be the end all on my days on earth, no disprespect meant lilith, by the way.
James Del Fuego
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Lilith is like the most powerful and beautiful woman i could findā¦so it is her i wish to serveā¦if another one who shows to me to be more powerful and more beautiful then i will probably go thereā¦and its not about human beauty or money power that i am speaking of
Servitude or worship never leads to anything other than the magician becoming the entityās bitch