So should I make this my journal?
I’ve begun doing research and focusing on creating King Paimon as an archetype in my mind and been reading into the evocation / summoning rituals that many people have tried as well as the ones from the past that were successful (folklore? I guess.)
Since starting my research I’ve been focusing a lot on the past instead of the future which is weird for me because I never question my past, I know I wasn’t a good person. This started happening very quickly however and last night I did not fall asleep until 4am, which is not normal for me as I am usually asleep around 9pm my time. When I finally fell asleep, I began focusing on the question of “what if”, you know the one that keeps everyone from pushing forward in their endeavors. Doubt.
Slipping in and out of this state, I finally entered the dream state / lucid dream state and reflected on a dream I had once had and told my family about as a child where I was sitting in a temple bowing / kneeling to something that looked similar to a statue of Jesus crucified. The thing is though, I never actually saw the crucifix, it was almost a mocking imagery of the Christian religion. When I tried to look upward, I was unable to move, when I tried to breathe I could not feel my lungs. I felt like I was suffocating from a massive presence of energy and after readings, Ill get into why I think this was King Paimons doing and why I’m attracted to the idea of evoking King Paimon out of all the other entities / demons spoken of.
In the dream, I was merely reflecting on a previous dream and began to see myself as the actor and not the spectator anymore. The entity I was peering on came down just as the dream I had before from it’s place of power and stood in front of me kneeling to them. The entity I perceived as the image of Jesus, lowered their hand and told me to stand not to serve. I didn’t audibly hear them say this but it was a feeling that made me immediately stand and peer into nothingness, just an empty room. This is literally just a replay of the dream I had as a teenager. However, I could still feel the same suffocating energy and presence that was there previously. I did not wake up until 11am, which is again just another rare thing for me as I am never sleeping and always moving. The reason I think it was King Paimon in this dream was the massive amounts of energy and constant struggle to pull myself together mentally. It was powerless to the will of the energy in the dream.
I am not an expert on dream culture or dream magick, however I will be definitely attempting to re-create this dream until my mind is at rest and ready to perceive King Paimon’s presence.
Feel free to let me know what you think of the dream. It was definitely mind-numbing for me, and all of my family just thought it was Jesus answering my prayers, you know the archetype idea.
Also, I’m not rushing into things with this one. I’d like to know everything I am getting into before contacting someone viewed as a demon king. Even if they are just an archetype of my subconscious and self. I also think the delay is making them more viable as “King” in my mind.