I wanted to talk here about something that I notice in a lot of my evocations.
I didn’t find something in the video curriculum dealing about that problem, so I decide to post it here, in case it would be something common.
When I perform ritual evokation, I start as adviced by making a good contact with the spirit “element” once in the Theta gamma state.
Most of the time, that’s the moment of the evocation when I have the best feeling with the presence of the spirit.
Then I focus on the sigil, and as I evoke, I feel the presence of the sigil becoming more and more important as if something was pulled out of the sigil to form a invisible being inside the circle (maybe some of you have something similar ?)
Then, I try to open my internal ears, because most of the time I don’t see anything at first, and I ask “… are you here”. Once I have the confirmation, I start making my demand.
That’s where the problem come.
As I am making my demand, most of the time I focus on it, giving details on what I want, sometimes forming images in my mind of what is my goal.
Problem his: doing that I totally loose the feeling of the spirit presence, 'im centered on myself and my goal. When I finished enoncing my goal, the spirit presence feel more distant or vanished, it is then easy to banish him.
Have you encounter this matter ? Did this disturbed the success of your rituals ? Should I consider that once I felt the presence, I can go ahead, or should permantly feel the spirit even when claiming my orders ?