I’ve had the same kind of experience with a blue female with four arms about 5-6 years ago when i started practicing witchcraft.
It was a demonic/evil/negative form so i got out of it. But while i was into it this kali was my higher power and boy let me tell you she knows how to use that very long tung.
Then after i get back into church to make a long story short i got out of it and then they kicked me out for talking about sex to much and i lied and said i was in a relationship with 2 women because that gives you status
At the age of 35 i am a virgin. It has been forced on me so many times i really don’t have any desire for it. my hand is enough.
I have tried to copulate with women three times, Because of the abuse i suffered it didn’t work and trust me it took a while to get over the shame of being 19 and nailing a girl for 45 minutes and it just didn’t work.
With all of that in the background it’s really not surprising i kind of avoid sex and girls and men that are into me.
The first sexual experience that i ever had that worked was with a blue bitch i saw and felt with four arms a long tung and black hair. Then i rejected her and then 2 other female beings came into my life and even while i was attending church i was told by this what i thought was jesus that they were angels put there by him when for about a few months i thought they were demons/negative entities that i allowed in my life while i was into the occult.
And yes i get sexual with them and they have fangs and claws and they use them on me and i love it.So I’ve been doing this sense 2017 and that is actually what i was talking about with the two women so in a way i was not lying. But even they have told me that i am still a virgin. Sex with spiritual entities doesn;t count. And no I’m not saying any more believe it if you want or not and no I’m not getting into how we do it.
Now the blue bitch is coming around and that’s actually kind of why I guess I’m posting this.The’re supposedly succubi but if they take my energy there is always more there because i never seem to be lacking in any.
But the weird part about this “kali” or as i like to call her “the blue bitch” she has fangs like a vampire and drinks my life force but gives me her power in return.
What has me confused is i have been a practicing christian and did the church thing for about 15 1/2 -16 years and read my bible faithfully even while i was into that witchcraft and now all of this shit is coming up.
One of the original 2 angels is an arctic fox/white kitsune and the other one is a dragon and yea i know what the bible says about dragons being satan. Then the blue bitch comes around again.
And yes i suffer from a few mental things and am on medication but what i don’t understand a few days ago i pray to jesus for 3 1/2 hours and nothing happens. i pray to this kali/the blue bitch and her arms wrap around me and i feel like it usually does with christ.
But at the same time the more of my past that i remember because i buried all of it in my mind /made myself forget it to protect myself etc… Both of my parents are pedophiles. Mom got pregnant with my kid after seducing me when i was young and believe me that’s not even the worst of it. She had an abortion. i was 12 or 14.
This is all going through my head and it’s just confusing. There is more to it but this is roughly the gist of it. But also at the same time i fucking despise the church and it’s members. 95%-99% of the people that did these things to me go there.
I’ve quit going to church and i can completely understand why many are burned to the ground. I was going to put this as a reply to a post from a guy talking about kakli s a succubus but this just all came out. maybe typing actually helped.
But at the same time I’m in a good area in my life and starting this friday I’m getting back into therapy and I’m going to try to reconcile with my biological father. because he mite have changed. I am not going to with mo biological mother. she’d still fucking crazy. I mean i have all this shit in my head but it is finally getting a little more tolerable. Things are looking up it’s just taking a while to get rid of all of this shit. Anyways there you go.
Post something or don’t i just had to get that out