How many of you havw gone through the actual steps taken in the elemental alchemical changes brought upon yourself by undergoing the hermetic principles and courses of the Golden Dawn. As I am very Grey, and utilize both light and dark magick strategically, I am really pulled by which system to use in order to attain true ascent in the sense of connecting my mind body and spirit to work in unison. Evocation check, manifesting physical changes in reality check, but i feel like there is something more. Any of the older guys who arent opposed to RHP have any former advice here? I will continue to work with my dark entities, but also feel as though the light has its percs, and believe that being made of the 4 elements is nothing to ignore.